I swallowed. But I couldn't stand the thought of chickening out and going back down in normal clothes. It didn't take long to dress. Underneath I wore a pretty normal black bra. As I'd expected, it was complexly visible beneath the nylon halter. I'd considered not wearing panties, but I'd have been almost totally naked so I slipped on a pair of pink satin boyshorts. Again, they were totally on show. the skirt barely hid anything. I slipped on the hair band and the choker and I was done.
I glanced at myself in the mirror. Teenage, jaibait pornstar. That's what I looked like. I tried to keep my heart from thumping as I padded downstairs.
Jim glanced first then looked away. Then back. Steve looked over and then back to his boardgame rulebook. Petey saw them look, turned, made a puzzled face, then looked away again. Kevin was rummaging in his bag, looking for something.
I screwed up my courage and stalked to the middle of the room. Doing so seemed to give permission to the boys to stare now, at least to the two who'd noticed.
'Please don't think I'm mental' I thought to myself, and I cleared my throat.
"Yes. I know what I'm wearing." I said to them all.
Kevin looked up.
"Fucking hell." He said.
"Please don't say the word 'slut'." I said. "I ... I just want to look sexy. And it's just us here. And I ... I trust you guys. So I just. Want to wear this. Is it okay?"
"Eh, sure?" Said Jim. "But fuck, Jess. I don't know if I can, we can, eh, stop ourselves staring."
"That's okay." I said quickly. "I understand. I don't mind. I want you to, actually. Stare. Or look anyway. You can take a good look. I eh, that's the point. I know, it's kind of, look-at-me, look-at-me. But I, eh, that's what I want. Do I look sexy?"
"Jesus, Jess. yes. It's, eh, you're lovely."
I turned slowly. Their eyes on me. I managed to smile.
"I wanted to do this for ages." I said. "I want to look sexy. I trust you guys won't tell. And, eh, I thought you might like it. But I wanted this, for myself really. Okay?"
"Jess. You can wear whatever you like." Said Jim. "It's just us here. I won't tell anyway. What you wear in the cabin, stays in the cabin."
The others made agreeing sounds.
"There's more." I said. "Much more. I'm sorry. I think, but I want you all to pay attention to me for a while and listen carefully, please. Actually. I'll sit."
I was too nervous, standing up.
I sat beside Jim, very aware of how my satin panties were on show.
"I want. I want to do something. With you guys. But it has to be all of you. So, if you listen to the end, I want you to decide if you want to go on with this. And if anyone doesn't want to, that's totally fine, and we won't. It has to be everyone. No comebacks, okay? It's .. it's a lot to ask."
They all looked stunned and curious, wondering if I could be about to say what they were possibly imagining.
"I love you guys." I said. "You're all my closest friends. More than friends. It's always been a bit odd. Four guys, one girl. Geeky stuff. A little nerd club. But you guys are wonderful. I never wanted girl friends or anyone outside of us. And I would be happy. Delighted. To be any one of you's girlfriend."
I let that hang in the air for a minute. We never talked about this stuff. Girls. Boys. Love.
"And I've thought about it. And thought about it. But I know it would be a bad idea. Not that it wouldn't work but because there'd be jealousy. I think. I don't want to break us all up. Maybe it wouldn't, but it's a risk I don't want to take."
They still didn't react. What was there to say? For me, this was all preamble anyway.
"But I am sooo fucking horny." I said. "All the time. The last time we came here, I was so horny, being around you guys all the time, I was rubbing one out every night."
Petey laughed. A sudden explosive burst of a laugh that seemed to shock him more than me.
"Sorry. Sorry." He said. "I just .. sorry."
"I think Petey was too." Said Jim.
I laughed. "Fuck! We never talk about sex. Never. I think about you guys all the time. I suspect. I think you think about me. Everyone who knows us, goes, 'She's weird, hanging out with those guys. I bet they're doing it.' But we never even talk about it.
Petey? Do you ever think about me when you jerk off. You don't have to say yes."
"I will now!" He said, looking me up and down.
They all laughed.
"And before I showed up looking this is?" I asked.
"Yeah." He said, shyly, glancing around.
"We love you too, Jess." Said Jim. "I think I know what you mean. I think about you. About asking you out. But it would feel like a betrayal. I think."
I noticed that the others all looked at him when he said that. A betrayal. It would be.
"I want to be with all of you." I said, just letting it fall out of me. "Have sex with you all. For this week. Together. That's what I want."
My chest was heaving. Even though I'd got it out without my voice breaking, it was like my body knew what a big deal it was to say this, and was reacting anyway.
"But it has to be all of you. Anyone vetoes, that's it. And that's okay. No half or three quarter or quarter measures. All or nothing. Nobody is left out. And, by together, I mean all of us together. And yes, that means you guys being naked together. With me. No sneaky one-on-ones, even though I'd like that, with any of you, but same as before. It's all together or nothing."
There was a long silence. I searched their faces, from one to the other, feeling very exposed and desperate.
"Fuck. I really didn't think you'd say that." Said Derek.
"But you thought it." I said.
"As soon as you said you were horny." He replied. "Have you thought this through Jess? What if you don't like it."
"Well, I'm with all my best friends." I said. "So how bad can it be? And I've thought about it and I've thought about it. And I've imagined this conversation so many times. And I know it's a risk, and nobody would understand. But I want you all. I know I'm greedy. And I do want the attention. But I think you'd like it. And it's what I want."
"Fuck. I really didn't think you'd say that." Said Derek.
"But you thought it." I said.
"As soon as you said you were horny." He replied. "Have you thought this through Jess? What if you don't like it."
"Well, I'm with all my best friends." I said. "So how bad can it be? And I've thought about it and I've thought about it. And I've imagined this conversation so many times. And I know it's a risk, and nobody would understand. But I want you all. I know I'm greedy. And I do want the attention. But I think you'd like it. And it's what I want."
I still couldn't read them. Maybe I should have done this one to one. It was like they couldn't talk in front of each other. Or me.
"You want us to say now?" Said Jim.
"Yes. We can talk about it, but, yes tonight." I said.
"Just here?" Asked Steve. "When the cabin is over, we're back to before?"
"Yes. I think so. I mean, it would be so impractical at home."
He nodded. "And, well, sorry. I have to ask, but have you done this before Jess? I mean, with anyone?"
I shook my head. "No. I couldn't. not with someone else."
They knew what I meant but they still didn't speak up.
I filled the silence. "But wait. Say we do this. And then go home, and it's all okay, and then one of you gets a girlfriend, then that's cool. It's okay. I'm not so greedy to want you all to myself. I mean, I'd hope she would be nice and sure, I'd probably hate her. But, it's not like I'd be owning you guys forever."
"You want us to say now?" Said Jim.
"Yes. We can talk about it, but, yes tonight." I said.
"Just here?" Asked Steve. "When the cabin is over, we're back to before?"
"Yes. I think so. I mean, it would be so impractical at home."
He nodded. "And, well, sorry. I have to ask, but have you done this before Jess? I mean, with anyone?"
I shook my head. "No. I couldn't. not with someone else."
They knew what I meant but they still didn't speak up.
I filled the silence. "But wait. Say we do this. And then go home, and it's all okay, and then one of you gets a girlfriend, then that's cool. It's okay. I'm not so greedy to want you all to myself. I mean, I'd hope she would be nice and sure, I'd probably hate her. But, it's not like I'd be owning you guys forever."
They nodded. In truth, my guys were not the kind to get a girlfriend in high school. Too shy around girls other than me. Too nerdy and weird to attract attention.
"And we never tell." Said Kevin.
"No. Never." Said Jim. "Even if we don't ... do this, this conversation goes nowhere outside this room."
They all nodded.
"I'm not saying we should vote now." Said Jim. "But when we do. I think we should white ball it."
We all looked to the box of 'Devils' Advocate' on the table. In it, part of the game components were a velvet bag and a set of balls. Five white. Five black. In the game, there was a voting round, where a proposal could be vetoed by a single black ball. Nobody would know how anyone voted.
"That's clever." I said.
"Is it? You asked me to bring it." He said.
I smiled. "You got me."
"I'm not sure." Said Petey.
"I mean, I want to. But sex isn't worth losing you." He said. "If you didn't like it, or things got weird after, I'd .. I'd regret it."
I looked at him, put my hand on his arm.
"I promise you Petey. If I don't like it, but I think I will, but if it didn't work out for some reason. I promise you, I won't get weird. I want this. I'm asking for it. Literally. And I will love you no matter what."
He melted. I think it was the hand on his arm that clinched it.
"And we never tell." Said Kevin.
"No. Never." Said Jim. "Even if we don't ... do this, this conversation goes nowhere outside this room."
They all nodded.
"I'm not saying we should vote now." Said Jim. "But when we do. I think we should white ball it."
We all looked to the box of 'Devils' Advocate' on the table. In it, part of the game components were a velvet bag and a set of balls. Five white. Five black. In the game, there was a voting round, where a proposal could be vetoed by a single black ball. Nobody would know how anyone voted.
"That's clever." I said.
"Is it? You asked me to bring it." He said.
I smiled. "You got me."
"I'm not sure." Said Petey.
"I mean, I want to. But sex isn't worth losing you." He said. "If you didn't like it, or things got weird after, I'd .. I'd regret it."
I looked at him, put my hand on his arm.
"I promise you Petey. If I don't like it, but I think I will, but if it didn't work out for some reason. I promise you, I won't get weird. I want this. I'm asking for it. Literally. And I will love you no matter what."
He melted. I think it was the hand on his arm that clinched it.
They'd still barely discussed this. When I'd imagined this, played it out in my head, there was always a long discussion and pros and cons were tossed around and points debated. But in reality, it was so bald a proposal there wasn't much to discuss.
Kevin opened the box and took out the bag and the balls. He passed them around, and each boy took a black one and a white one. he passed me the bag and the last two balls.
"I already voted." I said. "But okay. I showed them all the white ball and dropped it into the bag. Then I passed it to Petey.
We all looked away. Petey put his hand in the bag and withdrew it. We were all well practised in Devil's Advocate and could palm the ball we held back.
The bag passed around. They all glanced at me as they voted and I gave them each a warm smile.
I got up when the bag was full and stood back in the middle again. Jim passed me the bag.
"No comebacks. It's okay to say no." I said. "I can totally understand. I know that if there's a black ball in here, it's because you just think this is a bad idea, not that you don't want to."
I reached into the bag, once again acutely aware of just how slutty my costume was. But I liked it. Liked the way they looked at me. Even if there was a black ball in the bag, I might keep on dressing like this for the whole week. I'd brought enough clothes.
"I feel there ought to be music." I said.
"Isn't it tense enough?" Said Kevin. "I can barely breathe."
I rummaged, felt around and pulled out a ball, showed it to them. It was white.
"That could be mine." I said.
I dropped it back in the box and reached in again.
"If one of these is black, it doesn't mean someone doesn't love you." Said Jim.
"I know. But maybe I should have gone commando." I said.
There was nervous laughter. I showed them the next ball. Also white.
It was quiet now.
I reached in, grabbed the remaining three in my hand and pulled them all out at once.
"Fuck the build-up" I said. "I'm too impatient."
They were all white. I felt my legs tremble.
"Okay." I said. "I'm really not sure how I would have felt if one had been black."
We all looked at each other.
"Did you imagine what comes next?" Said Jim.
"I kind of imagined you'd all look a lot more happy than you do now. You all look kinda shocked and nervous."
"It's just. I think ... I'm speaking for all of us." Said Jim. "It's a wild idea. I, we, think of you like, well, a sister. A cool sister. I know every one of us thinks you're amazing. And you look amazing. But kinda like you, we never would dream of well, asking you out, because, well, the same reasons."
"And we're all pussies." Said Steve. "None of us have girlfriends. Or ever have."
"And I've never had a boyfriend. I just have you guys. But I'm really excited to do this and, well, yeah, I did imagine what it would be like. Many times. So many times. But you know, this is for you guys too. And I know it's harder for you..."
"Why?" Said Petey. "Why is it harder?"
Kevin answered him. "Because we have to do it in front of each other."
"Yes." I said. "But it's okay. I promise it will be. And I kinda need someone to give me a hug now, or I'm going to lose all my nerve."
They all sat there, still slightly stupefied.
I gave Petey a longing look, willing him to make a move. He was youngest, and I had to admit, the most malleable.
He glanced around. I realised something.
"You don't want to be first to move? I'll make it easy for you. I want you to come over and kiss me Petey. I chose you."
He struggled to his feet and then, to my surprise, pulled off his top and teeshirt in one move, revealing a surprisingly fit and hairless torso. Then he dropped his sweatpants and kicked off his shoes, leaving him in snug, boner-hugging trunks.
"Fuck! You look great!" I said and realised I was clapping my hands together. "I didn't think you'd strip off. Keep the trunks. I like them."
I glanced around. "I've seen all you guys near naked loads of times. I know what you look like under your clothes, more or less. So, don't feel embarrassed. My everything is on show here, so no shyness. I want all of you, big and small, slim and heavy. Okay?"
I held my arms out to Petey and he shyly crossed the couple of yards. I wrapped my arms round him and smothered him in kisses. I ran my hands over his ass and giggled.
"Well come on." I said to the others. "Join in."
I grinned at Petey and put his arms around me tighter. His boner pressed against my belly. The head of his cock poked from the waistband and left a slimy trail over my belly.
"Oh yeah, Petey. Good boy." I said and kept smiling at him as I glanced around. They were all checking each other out as they undressed.
In truth, I had no idea how this would go. My fantasies morphed from them agreeing to this to full-on group sex with no clear path from one to the other. But I liked being held by Petey and I wanted to give them all hugs and kisses and reassurance, so as soon as I felt Kevin beside me I slid from Petey to him and kissed him too and put an arm around him while keeping myself pressed against Petey. Then I turned again, pulling at Petey and Kevin to keep pressed against me as I turned to Steve and put my arms over his shoulders and kissed him.
As I turned to Jim, I said. "This is so good, fellas. I love it. Exactly as I imagined. Press in close to me please. I'd love it if you rubbed your cocks on me please."
Jim looked at me like 'Do you know what you're doing?' but I just laughed and kissed him.
Jim was the heaviest of the four. He was beefy and a lot of weight hung on his broad frame. But truth be told, it was Jim who featured in most of my masturbatory fantasies. I slid my hand into his trunks and ran my hand up and down his cock. The first I'd ever felt. It was so much harder than I'd imagined. Stiff, literally like a bone, but more mobile at the base than I'd imagined. I'd heard or read that the tip was best and I let my hand caress over the top of it as I kissed him.
I gave him a grin as I moved back into the middle.
"Come on guys. I should be feeling eight hands on me. Please. This is for me too. I want you to get a good feel. My tits. My ass. Everywhere. It feels amazing."
"You're sure Jess?" Asked Steve, sounding very hesitant.
"Yes. I'm so sure." I said, turning to him and reaching for his cock too. "I feel wonderful. You're making me feel wonderful. And I feel safe and secure and loved, with all of you. Just go wild. Now's your chance. I want you to feel anywhere you want."
Eight pairs of hands bumped into each other over my breasts and I laughed and reached for Kevin and Petey's cocks again, and I wriggled between them, bumping against them and pulling them closer to me.
"Oh fuck. This is so good." I said. "I love it. Thank you."
Kevin gave a nervous giggle.
"That's funny?" I asked.
"Jesus, Jess. You're thanking us?"
"You don't know how nice it feels. Being the centre of attention. Being wanted. All your lovely hands on me and your stiff cocks. Please, get closer. I won't break. Press those boners against me."
"Do you want us to undress you?" Asked Jim. I loved Jim. He was the only one who was showing some initiative.
"Yes. Good idea, but not yet. I want to suck you guys with my mouth while I'm wearing my slutty outfit.
"Fucking hell!" Said Petey. "Jess! Were you always like this?"
I turned to him laughing. "Sometimes. Everyone has a slutty side. I'm just lucky enough to play it out with four lovely guys. We're having fun here Petey. Well, I am. Are you?"
"Sure Jess. Sure. It's amazing. I just want to make you happy."
"I know Petey. That's why I love you. All of you."
"We love you too Jess." Said Jim.
I had his cock in my hand and I turned back to him. "I know Jim. And that was a good suggestion. Don't make me do all the leading. Use your imagination. And to show my appreciation, you get your cock sucked first. My first ever blowjob. But I want everyone to have a go in mouth. Okay?"
I slid to my knees, pulling his trunks down as I went.
His cock was fascinating to me. It bounced from side to side. It was stiff but it moved like the arm on a chronometer. His foreskin was stretched way down and the head was almost purple. The little line where it connected was taut and white, almost painful looking. I giggled. It looked funny, like a physical expression of how he was feeling. If I had one, it would have been all purple and almost bursting.
I opened my mouth and closed my lips around it. I'd heard and read, that although it was called a blow job, there shouldn't be air, and no actual blowing. Just lips and tongue and as tight as possible. Ideally moving almost all the way out and in as deep as possible.
I made as good a seal as I could and slid my mouth down. It was warm and smooth and immediately I felt it swell more and twitch. I'd moved my hand onto Petey's cock, but my other hand flailed around looking for another.
I slid back up again, seeing Jim loom above me. I grabbed his cock in the free hand and grinned at him. He looked stunned.
"Lovely." I said. "Is it good?" He just looked lost. I glanced around.
"Kevin." I said, you stand beside Jim, close in to him, and I'll do you at the same time. Steve, yeah, " I said, getting hold of his cock. "You get in close too. You and Petey are next."
They were all just amazed. Steve looked kinda freaked out. Me doing this was just so much of a shock for them they just couldn't enjoy it. Still, they moved where I'd daid.
I moved back to Jim's cock.
"Slower, slower please Jessie." He said.
"It's too fast?" I asked. I'd felt I was moving quite slowly over his cock.
"It's too much." He said. "Are you okay?"
"I'm great." I said. "The only problem is you guys look so freaked out. Don't be please. Just enjoy it. Please. Enjoy me. I want to do this. I want to make you guys feel good. I love all of you and I feel wonderful. I want to do more and more. I won't regret this. I promise. Please. Just .. talk to me. Tell me I look good. That it feels good. It does for me."
"It feels amazing." Said Jim. "Just slow down."
"You look pretty Jess." Said Petey. "You always do. You're so beautiful. You didn't need to get dressed up."
In answer I slid my mouth down over Petey's cock, and looked up at him. It was hard to smile at the same time but I tried. Petey's cock did the swelling, twitching thing too and his mouth made a perfect 'O'. I glanced at Steve and Kevin. I could slide my hand over Kevin's easy enough but Steve on my left was getting a raw deal. But they also looked kind of stupefied.
I released Petey's cock. "Switch out." I said, sitting back. "Jim with Kevin. Petey with Steve." As the shuffled I said. "I wanted to get dressed. I know it's slutty. I never wear stuff like this but I wanted to try it. I thought it would be easier for you guys too. Sexier. Not like boring Jess."
"Fuck, Jess. You're never boring."
I laughed. "Okay. But please, please, talk to me. All of you. Tell me what you want. What feels good or bad. I need some feedback, please."
"Okay." Said Steve. "Please do Kevin first. If you put it in your mouth I might cum right now."
I giggled. "See. That's both feedback and encouragement. Cool. Kevin, can you hold my hair back while I do it? And run your fingers through my hair and hold my head. "
"You look beautiful." Said Petey as I sucked Steve's cock into my mouth.
They were all different. Not big differences in size. But they were different shapes and levels of wobblyness. Plus, they were all differently hairy. Petey had soft wisps and Kevin a thick curly matt.
My mouth had an incredible effect on all of them though. I knew boys liked blowjobs but not how much. It was too much. I learned to slow down the movement of my tongue and to lick and tease them more than just sliding straight down.
Their hands on my head felt amazing. They were gentle, maybe too gentle, but I loved feeling the contact.
"More hands on me please." I said, switching to Steve.
"Steve, if you cum, it's okay. Just let it go."
"Okay" he breathed.
But as soon as my mouth went over his cock he felt different. His cock more pulsed than throbbed and I felt him subtly stiffen his whole body. I'd read that once a guy started, he couldn't stop it so I just slicked my mouth over him and slid down and back up as hard as I could. He pulsed in my mouth and I felt him give an involuntary thrust into me. I didn't gag but then I felt the hot jet of his semen zip from his cock and straight past my gullet into my throat. I just let it shoot in, not swallowing. I pressed down harder and he pulsed again, another jet, more and faster. I had a sudden sense of seeing myself, on my hunkers, hands on their cocks and receiving Steve's jizz direct into my belly. It felt amazing. Woozy. I loved it.
He pulsed again, and then again, weaker each time and I sucked on it, swirling my tongue over it.
The jet of semen had been so much stronger than I'd been expecting. Like it was pumped from a bicycley pump, hard. His cock had been deep in my mouth and my throat open so it had just slid into me like an injection. If I'd tried to swallow I think it would have come out of my nose.
He was still hard but nothing more was coming out so I slid off him, looked up.
"Fuck! Are you done? Is it okay?" I asked.
"Yes. I'm sorry." He gasped. "It was just too much."
"Don't be sorry. It was lovely. I loved it." I said, springing to my feet. My calves were sore from kneeling. I threw my arms around him and hugged him. Kissing him.
"I loved it. I loved it. I hope it was good for you Steve." I whispered.
"Oh Jess. You're just incredible." He wheezed.
"I want more. But my knees are sore." I said, turning to the others.
They were looking at Steve like he was the first soldier to get hit on the mission.
"Suggestions?" I asked.
"You want to keep going?" Asked Jim.
"Fuck yeah!" I said. "Why does it feel like I'm dragging you? Do you want to go on or not?"
"Yes. Yes." Said Jim. "Sorry. It's just, girls' aren't supposed to like ..."
"What do you know?" I said. "I'm not 'girls'. I'm Jess. And I love having you guys in my mouth and I loved Steve's spunk shooting into my belly. And I want all those cocks in me before we're done. Are you guys up for this or not? Because if not ..."
"How about you sit on the couch and we stand in front of you." Said Kevin.
"Good boy." I said. "Better idea. You sit on the couch and I'll sit on your lap. Jim and Petey in front. Kevin, come over and hold me on the couch.
Jim had to push Kevin towards the couch. As I backed up, I realised he didn't understand what I meant.
"Not actually on your lap, dummy. Push that cock out." I said.
"Fuck, Jess!" He said. "You mean ..."
"Of course. And hold me. I'll be wobbly."
He slid forward and I slipped off the satin shorts. They all stared.
I grinned at them, feeling both shy and brazen at the same time.
"I'm so glad I'm doing this with you guys for the first time." I said. "I feel so safe with you. I can be as slutty as I want to be. Not slutty, just, I dunno, open. I know it's just between us, and you won't be all weird and judgey. If you weren't all so shy, it'd be perfect."
"We're not shy." Said Jim. "We just want you to be safe."
"I'm on birth control." I said. "I'm not an idiot."
"I meant ..."
"I know what you meant." I said, gently. "I am safe. I'm so happy. Just ... just try to get into it, okay?" I offered him and Petey my arms.
"Now lower me onto Kevin's cock."
They did, and I felt Kevin's hands below me, and Steve held my shoulders. His cock was softer but not back to normal. It wobbled in his lap. I felt for Kevin's cock, still rock hard. I slid the head over the lips of my pussy and it was so wet it slid straight in. I let my weight go down and suddenly it was in me, buried in deep. It wasn't sore, so much as it knocked my breath out. Like the shock of cold water, though it was warm. I groaned and lifted myself an inch and then deep back down, grinding onto him. Kevin tensed behind me.
"Okay Kev?" I gasped.
"Jesus. Yes." He gasped. And then I felt him reach around me, wrapping his arms over my breasts and cupping them and that felt so good I cried out.
"Yes Kevin, Oh yes." I gasped, feeling tears on my lids. "Fuck yeah. Hold me.
Fuck yes. I want to be your girl." I cried, not sure where that came from even as I said it.
I reached for their cocks, found Petey's and pulled him to me, bending to get him into my mouth, then my hand found Jim's and I gobbled on it too. Then back again.
I was trying to bounce on Kevin's lap but with my hands occupied it was hard.
"Fuck it into me Kevin. You do it." I said.
"I'll come." He gasped, gripping me tight.
"Then do. Please. That's what it's for."
I could feel his body tightening already and I ground harder, already regretting the time I'd lose switching out. I was ready for the same jets but all I felt was him thrusting harder, and more uncontrolled. My mouth bucked on Jim's cock. Or was it Petey's? Steve was holding back my hair and I felt more hands on my head.
I looked up at them, grinding my pussy hard on Kevin's cock even as he kept spasming into me. I reached for their wrists and pulled them onto my breasts, then leaned back against Kevin till my head was beside his.
"Thank you Kevin, honey." I cooed to him. "Your first go in my pussy. First of many I hope."
They were still rubbing my breasts, Steve kind of lost beside me.
"Come on. Who wants me next? I'll lie on my back. Petey? Cool. Jim, Steve, keep your cocks where I can suck them or hold them. Lift me. Yeah. Don't make me do all the work."
Gently, Jim lifted me off Kevin and I lay back with my head on the armsrest.
Petey fetched a cushion for me to hold up my back.
Petey nervously clambered onto the sofa and I lifted my legs.
"Stevie. Will you hold them open for Petey please."
He caught hold of an ankle. Jim slid his hands over my breasts. "You want to be our girl?"
I grinned. He got it. "Yeah. Your Jess. Who you fuck all the time."
He looked over his shoulder. "Kevin, will you cradle Jess's head?"
"Yes Jim. That's good. I want all of you on me."
I flicked my eyes up to Kevin as I felt his hands beneath my head. "That feels so good. All of you on me at once. No-one left out. Yes, guys, yes. Please. More touching. Come on Petey. My lovely Petey. Slide that perfect cock of yours into me. I'm so ready for you."
He pressed it on me, finding his purchase and then slowly slid it in, gasping as he did so.
I groaned, loudly, twisting in their arms.
I got Jim's cock in my right hand and lifted the other to grip Kevin's wrist.
"Oh Petey, Petey. That's so good. Fuck! I've loved you my whole life. Since we were four."
"I love you too Jess. Always. Always. You're so amazing. I hope this feels good for you."
It did. Feeling Petey between my legs felt incredible. He thrust deep, and as he went in to the hilt I ground my crotch on him, trying to hook him into me with my ankles. I pulled Jim's cock into my mouth and then felt for Steve's hand, finding his fingers, he wriggled, not sure what i wanted but I pulled his fingers down to my clit and clumsily rubbed them near the button, then released him, but he didn't get it, and just stroked over my pubic hair. I caught him again and showed him again, then he got it.
"Pwhah!" I spat out Jim's cock again. "Yes Stevie. There. You feel it? Hard and fast please."
"Like this?" He asked. Steve liked to learn.
"Slightly lighter but faster and slow down and speed up every few seconds."
I licked at Jim's cock as Stevie tried. I grinned at him and Jim grinned back.
"Oooooh." I moaned. "Yeah. That's good. When you hear me moaning it's good."
"Petey. When you feel yourself getting ready, you can lean forward and pin my legs back to my ears if you like. Really give it to me. i can take it. I want it, all you have.
Jim had experimented with teasing and squeezing my nipples.
I nodded at him, bit my lip. "You could do that twice as hard, please." I whispered and then shucked at his cock until he helped me suck it into my mouth again.
This was exactly what I'd wanted. Kevin was lifting my head so I could see. I scrabbled at him, found his wrists in both hands and squeezed hard.
Petey was really going for it now. His cock was pistoning in and out. I could hear his waist slap against my wet crotch as well as feel it, and then he began to push forward and I let Jim loose from my mouth.
"Uh huh Petey. Yeah? You ready? Your Jess wants you. I love you. I want you to cum inside me. Fuck your Jess nice and hard, my perfect lovely Peteeey."
Steve's hand was trapped between my thigh and belly as Petey pressed down hard as he got close. I craned my neck up to him and Kevin was smart enough to help me so I could kiss Petey even as he spasmed and pulsed deep inside me. I could have come then if I'd let myself but I wanted to save it for Jim.
Petey stayed locked to me, and I smothered his face in kisses, giggling at his tortured looks. "Oh baby, baby baby. You made me feel so good."
"You all do." I said. "Feeling you all touching me feels incredible. The best part. I hope you're having as good a time as I am."
They all murmured assent.
"But I'm done now. Sorry Jim."
I got him for just a second and then he smiled. I loved him so much.
"Come on. I want to lie with my legs over the edge so the boys can fondle my tits and kiss me while you do me.
I looked around as I slid forward and turned.
"More kissing please. And these puppies need hands stroking and squeezing them all the time. And my nipples need firm, gentle pinching. And I want cocks near my face all the time so I can hold them and suck them."
I grinned. They were used to me ordering them around all the time. This was nothing new.
"And if you could all enjoy yourselves a bit more, that would be great too." I said.
"Jess?" Asked Petey, nervously. "Did you ... Did you come?"
"Not yet." I said. "I could have any time, especially with you inside me. But I'm trying not to, yet. In case I'm too flaked out before you all get to come."
I was in position. I beckoned Jim between my legs.
I looked around. "I want you all to watch me. Join me. If you guys want to jerk off, that would be cool. I only have one mouth and two hands is really hard."
Still, I grabbed Steve and Kevin as Jim prepared to enter me. I nodded to him. "Please Jim. Talk to me." I said. Then I grunted and my eyes shut as he stretched me open on his cock.
This felt different straight away. Jim caught my thighs in his hands and I hooked my legs around him. he could slide into me more easily and the feeling of being in his control, his firm hands gripping me was incredible.
"Jesus Fucking Christ!" I swore and immediately a warm glow rose from inside me.
My neck was buried into the back of the sofa so on his thrusts there was resistance when he pushed in hard. I could see him, my head craned forward and he looked at me kindly, his eyes full of tenderness. Kevin had reached down for my clit to rub it. He stopped, and Steve took over, copying Kevin. Both their hands were mashing over my tits. I could feel Petey behind me, stoking my hair.
"Oh boys. I love all of you. You make me feel amazing. I love being your girl. I'll always be your girl."
"We love you Jess." Said Jim. "You're the cleverest, coolest girl in the whole world. Being your friend is the best part of our lives. We'd o anything for you.You're our perfect, beautiful girl. We just want you to be happy and safe."
"I'm cumming now." I gasped. "Please don't stop. Watch me come for you boys. This is me orgasming for you. Jesus. It doesn't stop."
Kevin and Steve were both beating themselves off. I'd managed to lick and suck on them a bit but with all the hands and being pounded so hard it was difficult to keep my mouth on them.
My body was wrenched and tensing as if steel cables inside me were snapping. When I masturbated my orgasm would peak and last over eight to ten seconds, but this rolled on. It was too much, but I fought to keep going. If I'd asked them to pause or slow down it would break the moment.
I felt the room spin, dim. All I could see was Jim's broad frame, thrusting in time with my slow pulsing orgasm.
It subsided a little and I was aware of the cocks near me, the sweat on Jim's chest, making his hair slick.
I glanced at Kevin and Steve. "On my breasts, please." I moaned. Then I locked eyes on Jim as well as I could. "Now's the time Jim. Pump it in me. Please baby."
I licked my lips, surprisingly dry as Kevin and then Steve spasmed white semen over my wobbling breasts. It looked incredible. Jim came, his cock buried deep in me. This time I felt his jet deep inside. He shuddered, mouthing "I love you." as he did.
I wrapped my arms around him. I thought he'd hold back from the jizz on my chest but he wrapped his arms around me and kissed me and buried his face in my neck as I chuckled weakly.
I felt more hands on me and I glanced over his shoulder at them, giving them a happy smile.
"I think Jim's a bit emotional." I said.
I pushed him up. There were tears in his eyes. I gave him my most reassuring smile.
"You were worried I'd have regrets." I said, shaking my head. "None. I'm so glad we did this. I loved all of it. You were all great and I feel so close to you all. My heart is only filled with love for all of you."
They all reached to me and touched me, gently, which made tears, more tears stand out on my eyes.
"I am totally drained though." I said. "And I just want to lie here for a while."
"I'll eh, get a cloth." Said Kevin, always practical.
They started to gather my clothes. I grabbed Petey's hand. "Sit with me." I said. "Want cuddles."
I wriggled into his arms. When Kevin returned with a damp cloth, Petey took it and gently wiped all the cum from my breasts and my crotch. Steve brought me a glass of water and a chocolate bar. As soon as I saw them, I realised just how much I wanted them.
I scarfed my chocolate and sipped water as they tidied up a bit and pulled their trunks back on.
Steve handed me back my panties but I just put them beside me. I felt too lazy to get dressed again. When they were done I beckoned the other three over.
"Let's talk." I said.
Kevin threw his head back, like he'd rather do anything else.
"No." I said, communication is important. "We need to get it all out in the open."
"Like what?" Said Steve.
"Like how we do we feel about all this." Said Jim.
"I think I feel okay about it." Said Petey. "If Jess is happy, then I'm happy."
"Me too." Said Kevin.
"Okay, but how do you feel about me now? Embarrassed? Ashamed? Do you think you'd feel uncomfortable being alone with me now?"
There was silence, which I took to mean at least a partial yes. But then Jim said. "Not because we has sex but because, all the emotion. I ... I love you Jess ... and even though, weirdly, I don't feel jealous. I just think, I'd want to, well, tell you that, and touch you and well, be goofy."
"Is that a problem?"
"It is if you don't want it."
"But I do. From all of you. This isn't just sex."
"It isn't?" Said Steve.
"No. I really do love you. I want to be close to you all. Closer. I like to be touched. I want those little signs of affection. I know it's selfish. One girl. Four guys. And I know it will fall apart one day. You'll all get girlfriends who you can have all to yourselves. But in the meantime, I want your love. I want to be your girl."
"You can be our girl without having sex with us." Said Petey.
"Jesus, Petey." Said Steve, but I could tell he was joking.
"I know honey. But I want to. I really, really want to. And I know, I could have sex with you guys without it being a crazy gang-bang but that's what I wanted, and like I said before, I think even now, if I were to have sex with any of you alone or even with just one of you not there, it's not the same. It'd be wrong. And all together, well, yeah, I thought it would be crazier, but you're all so tender and sweet. It was lovely."
"You really don't feel bad at all, do you?" Said Kevin.
"Should I?" I asked. "I wanted to do it. You all could have said no, so I know you all wanted to. We're grown ups, or well, old enough. You guys treated me with respect and love. What's wrong with it?"
"Nothing." Said Jim. "But it's not just the shock, it's finding out that the tomboy nerd we always loved is a raging sex fiend underneath."
I laughed. "You know, I always have been. I've been diddling myself for a long, long time. You think that was crazy? You should see what goes on in my head."
"And do you think you've got it out of your system?" Said Jim.
I shook my head. "No. I'm not trying to. I want more. I'm hornier than ever. It takes girls a while longer to come down. And I have a long way to come down. But you mean, in general. I want, fuck, I feel bad saying this. I want to do this at least once a day while we're here. But I know that's a lot to ask. Especially since we all have to feel like it at the same time."
"Do it again?" Said Kevin, astonished. it took me a while to realised he was half kidding.
"Could we? I don't mean now. But at some point? Maybe tomorrow?" I asked.
Jim found my eyes and just nodded. Petey gave me a squeeze and an ironic sigh. "For you, Jess, anything."
Steve was leaning against the couch. He gave my hand a squeeze and kissed it. "Of course, whenever you want."
Kevin threw back his head.
"Okay, I'll say it. I jerked off in the bathroom after we got here. I dunno why. I think, honestly, it was riding beside you in the van. When you sat on me, I was thinking, if I hadn't jerked off just a few hours ago, I'd have cum right then. That's how I was able to last any time at all. And then I jerked off again. I thought at first, when you said to, that I'd never be able to do it. It was so sore, but it was so fucking incredible, and I was thinking. Maybe this will never happen again in my whole life. But now, Jesus, I am aching."
"Way too much information." Said Steve. "But thanks for admitting that. I felt so bad when I went off so early."
I was laughing. "I thought, at the time, wow, Kevin can really hold on. But thanks Kevin. You were so good."
"I was so nervous." Said Jim. You kept wanting to blow us, and I was thinking all the time, just think of anything else, sports, cookery, weather reports. I just didn't want to cum so quick..."
"But why? Why not?"
"Because, well, I wanted, ... to be in you."
I smiled.
"... And then when you moved everyone around. I was thinking. Shit. I'm going to like, thrust once and then cum. It'll be the biggest anti-climax ever. And you'd said, you were saving it. Shit. I was, so convinced it'd be like a bad joke."
"Oh baby. Baby, no. Please. Don't say that. Are you all like that? Think you have to perform?"
"Yeah." Said Steve. "I was so embarrassed when I just came straight away. It was so much, so fast and I just couldn't help it. I didn't have Kevin's advantage."
"Fuck embarrassed." I said. "It was lovely. And you got to go again. Please, guys. No need to try to impress me. I'm not keeping score. I just want you guys to enjoy yourselves with me."
They nodded. I was feeling a bit more energy. I pulled on my panties.
"Okay. I'm dressed again." I said. "Are we going to play 'Commanders' or what?"
We did. It was just the same, but different. Not as if it hadn't happened, but we did get involved in the game. As I sat on the floor, I hugged and caressed each of them and gave them little kisses. I loved doing this, feeling close to them. Showing my affection gave me a warm glow. When I went to the bathroom or fetched snacks, I switched where I was sitting, so as to give them each some attention. We held hands. They stroked my hair or put a hand on my thigh. I felt a buzz and a warmth that had always been there, but now it was buzzier, warmer.
In the bathroom, I inspected myself. No bruises, and my pussy felt tender but not sore. I washed it better than the wet cloth had done and more jizz oozed out. When the game was done I had a quick shower and changed into some pantyhose and a sweatshirt. Not much different than normal, but the pantyhose was more revealing and I opted for no panties.
I'd started to towel my hair when Petey came up. "We're making hot dogs. Do you want beer or wine ?" He asked.
"Neither, coke please." I said. "I'll be there in a minute."
He was about to go back down but I motioned for him to stay.
"Jess wants coke." He hollered down.
"Is there something you need" he asked.
"Just company." I said. "Is that okay?"
"Of course." He replied. He watched me towelling my hair.
"Why not use a drier?" He asked.
"More damage." I said. "I already blow dried this morning."
He watched for a little longer. "Could I?" He asked.
I smiled. "Of course."
He happily took the towel and copied what I'd been doing. Rubbing a lock of my hair between two hands of towel.
"I'd never have asked to do this before." He said. "But I'd have wanted to."
A thought flashed into my mind. Something his sister had told me, years before. My brain said no, but I was still so loved up and woozy I found myself saying it.
"You like girls Petey." Not a question
"Yeah." He laughed.
I turned to him.
"Would you like to be one?"
"Fuck? What?" He spluttered.
"I think you would." I said. "You're different to the others. Lovely. If you want. If you ever ... want to ... you could be a girl with me. Just you and me."
"What the fuck Jess?" He protested, but he looked unconvincing.
"It's okay." I said. "You can forget I said it. But I mean it. I'd never tell. No-one. Not the guys. No-one. It would be nice. If you want to. You just have to say."
"I don't want to be a girl, Jess. Shit, we just had sex."
"Okay." I said. "I won't press it."
I sat there for a moment.
"I love you doing my hair." I said. "It feels so good. Thanks."
He kept rubbing.
I glanced around. He looked like he was going to puke. I was about to tell him to forget I'd said anything when he blurted out, urgently but very quiet.
"I sucked Jim's cock."
"Okay." I said gently.
There was a silence again.
"Can I ask you? Did you ask him to or did he ask you?"
He closed his eyes. "I asked him. I said I wanted ... to try it ... to see if I was gay."
"Okay."
"And. Fuck. I shouldn't have told you it was Jim. I swore I'd never tell. I should have said just some guy."
"It matters that it was Jim." I said.
"Yeah? Why?"
"Because he loves you." I said.
He shook, almost like a tremor.
"Yes. I couldn't have asked anyone else."
"Thank you for telling me." I said. "I think, maybe this isn't the right thing to say. But I think it's lovely."
He rolled his eyes.
"But actually, I meant something else before. Do you like to feel pretty? Feminine? I meant, more, like you could wear some of my clothes, and I could do your hair. Maybe makeup. For fun."
"Fuck. Jess." He breathed.
"Because, I think you'd like that." I said. "More, even than sex. And if I could do that for you.With you. Nothing would give me greater pleasure."
He looked like he might be about to cry. I sloughed off the towel and put my arms around him. "Being a girl is great. So nice." I whispered. "Wearing panties. Liking boys. It's all good. We could do it together. Or just the clothes. If it would make you happy."
He trembled. I could feel his overwhelming desire. How easy it was to do something that meant so much to him.
"I would like that." He murmured into my neck, his voice breaking.
"Okay." I said. "I don't need to know more about you and Jim. I love that you told me. I know he'll understand. But you need to tell him, that you told me, okay? I really, really don't want to know secrets between you."
He nodded.
"You get why that secret is different to the girly one, right?
He nodded. "I'll tell him."
"Okay. Let's get hotdogs."
We ate on the stoop. The sun was setting. The guys drank beer and told jokes. I didn't want to drink because I wanted a clear head. I was still hornier than a hound and I wanted to get more that night so I didn't want booze.
The wooden porch floor had splinters and to save my stockinged feet, Kevin fetched my slippers. I hadn't asked him to. He just appeared with them after he saw me gingerly picking my way across the floor.
What was more surprising was that the other guys didn't tease him about it. When my coke was empty, Jim poured me some more.
"You guys are being awfully nice." I said. "I should let you fuck me more often."
Kevin laughed. "When you were upstairs. We talked. We were talking about, you know, having sex and what part was the best."
"Yeah? I wish I'd heard that."
"Uh huh. And Jim said the best part was when you said you felt safe with us."
"Actually I said when you said you loved us, but we knew that already."
"And we agreed. And it does feel good. More than good. And we were talking, and we said, we kind of treat you like one of the guys. And I know you like it that way. But now, we, well, we wanted to, for a while, treat you like a girlfriend."
I felt my belly tighten. "And you do nice things for a girlfriend?"
"Yeah." Said Steve. "Maybe it's annoying?"
"No. No, it's not." I said, trying to get my emotions under control.
"I knew it would be like this. At the start, all I could think of was sex. How much I wanted it. But I knew it would release, all these ... feelings. And I wanted that too.
But it's so strong. So much. I love being your girlfriend. The sex just made me love you guys all the more. So, thank you. It's lovely."
The sun was down. A sensor on the porch made the light come on, making us all start.
"What now?" Asked Kevin. "Another game? Sit here? Go inside and shoot the shit?"
They'd all turned to me. "Or sex?" I said, joking.
"Yeah. Or that." Said Kevin.
"How about charades?" I asked. Me and Petey against you three.
"Well that's hardly fair." Said Jim.
"You can't take two against three?" I asked.
"Not that. The two of you are like mind readers. You're so alike."
Was there an awkward silence at that? Maybe.
"Sure. There's an app for the titles." Said Kevin and he started clearing the glasses.
Steve helped him. I gave Petey a look and then Jim.
"I'll help wash up." I said.
"No. Stay." Said Petey. "Please."
Jim looked confused.
"I told her. About us. I'm sorry." Said Petey. "Not all of it. Just, that I ... gave you a blowjob."
"Woah!" Said Jim. "I mean, it's okay. I understand. But why stop there?"
"Jess said to. Till I told you I'd told her."
"Okay. Okay. But, like, it wasn't just that. Me and Petey. It was ... it is more than just a blowjob. That makes me sound like an asshole."
"Oh! Oh right. No. No Jess. It was, it was, well, you know. Like before. It was cool. I ... I love Jim."
Jim was almost behind him. He was a good six inches taller than Petey. He enfolded his little buddy in his thick arms and hugged him. Petey giggled. How had I not seen this before?
"Do ... do Kev and Steve know about this?" I asked.
They both nodded.
"We don't really talk about it." Said Petey. "But they know. Sure."
"Okay. So when you blurted this out to me, I'm like, the last to know?"
"Nobody else knows." Said Jim.
"Sure. Okay, but among us, I had no clue. I thought I was so smart."
They shrugged. I was about to go back in, but I turned.
"Were you, like, ashamed or scared to tell me?"
Jim cocked his head. "It's more, well, actually, I would have ..."
"We don't really talk about sex." Said Petey. "Till now."
There was more, I could see. Maybe Petey never really revealed his feminine side to Jim. I didn't really understand. But it didn't matter.
I gave them both a hug each and pressed myself against them.
"You? You still enjoyed it with me, right? You weren't just doing it for my sake?"
"Oh yeah." Said Jim. Petey nodded. I smiled and left them there, talking, but there was something in my mind about them.
We played charades. Really, this was an excuse for me to look cute in front of the guys. Standing up, my sweatshirt hid almost nothing and my ass, legs and the nylon-covered vee between my legs were fully on show.
The guys stared. I flirted. I felt gooey and happy inside.
As predicted, Petey and I could make each other guess a title with just a few gestures. Jim, Steve and Kevin stumbled over their clues like dunces. I'd hoped me and Petey would get some racier titles to act out but it was all war movies and Charles Dickens which didn't give much opportunity for suggestiveness.
I kept gazing at Petey, noting just how swishy he really was. He was slim, pretty and had better skin than me. His body was almost hairless. He was half way to a girl already. In my mind, I dressed him in cotton dresses and satin slips and pink crop tops.
Jim fascinated me too. I kept imagining him gently running his fingers through Petey's hair as he guided his head onto his cock. I imagined Petey writhing with Jim's cock in his ass. I kept having to be reminded it was my turn.
Between goes I sat as close as I could to the boys, each in turn, encouraging them to touch my legs and feel me up. The heat rose steadily.
At 15-4 we called it. It was getting embarrassing.
They all looked at me again. I laughed. "Oh this is good." I said. "Before, it was like I was dragging you. But now, you're all like runners waiting for the pistol. Have I teased you enough with my legs?"
"So fucking sexy." Said Kevin. "But to be honest, at any time, I'd have been admiring you."
"I think it's that we know now that you're definitely sure about this. Before, you said so, but maybe you might change your mind." Said Jim
"Trust is everything." I replied.
"And communication." Said Steve. "When you kept talking before, it felt, kind of uncomfortable. But, honestly, I'm so glad you did. Please, Jess, I know you're being flirty and seductive, but do say, what you want."
I stretched out my legs. "At some point you guys are going to start groaning when I start a sentence with 'I want' but for now, I'm going to make the most of it.
"What I want is for us all to sleep together. I picked this cabin because the whole of the ground floor here is open plan. If we move the low table and the shelves to the wall, we can put all three fold-out beds together. and that's more than enough room for five."
"The fold-outs can all bolt together." Said Jim. "I checked before. they can be turned into one giant bed."
"And your room?" Asked Petey
"I sleep with you guys." I said. "In the middle. Don't look weird. two of you were going to have to sleep together, two to a fold out anyway."
Kevin coughed. "Actually the plan was to draw lots for the fold outs and whoever loses sleeps in a chair."
"Seriously? That's insane." I said.
Steve looked at the ceiling. "Some of us would rather sleep in a chair or make someone else sleep in a chair than just admit the bleeding obvious."
"Can we go upstairs?" Asked Petey suddenly.
"Eh, sure." I said. "Of course."
I glanced around.
"Do you want me to come?" Asked Jim.
"It's okay." Said Petey and he took my hand and dragged me off. The others watched us go.
Upstairs, Petey took my hands. "I want to do it. Now. But I ... I'm not sure. Would it be okay?"
"You need to spell out what you mean Petey. I feel like I'm a step behind."
"Be a girl. Dress like a girl. Like you said. Kinda. I know. Not really. But I want ... When I saw you. You're so ... yourself. I don't want to pretend any more. Jim. .... Jim ...."
"What about him?"
"He said it was okay. He would like to. But he's unsure how you'd feel."
"You want to have sex with Jim, now? Together."
"Yes, with you. Like you."
His face was all worked with emotion.
"I get it. I think. You and Jim and me and Steve and Kev."
"And me and Jim, and maybe, I dunno. Me and Steve or Kev, if they want."
"Fuck. Petey. Really?"
"Yeah. Yeah. I ... I mean, they know. And Jim, I think. When you were, you know, blowing us. He wanted .. but it was too much and you were, like, in charge. It was your thing. But .... you know, he loves me. And I love him, and I love all you guys too."
I just nodded. "You're asking my permission?"
"Yes. Yes."
"Of course. That's so, lovely. If it's what you want."
He laughed. "You see? It's not so easy. You sound like Jim, before."
"Of course. Okay. And Steve meant, before, that you and Jim should just get over yourselves and admit you wanted to sleep together."
"Yes. That was me. It was kind of unstated, but yeah, I wasn't ready to do that then."
"Okay. Of course. You don't really have to ask me, but if it means anything, yes, with all my blessing Petey."
He was nodding. "And the other thing."
"You want to dress up too?"
"Yes. Please." He said. "Can I? Just ... something."
"We can do better than something. They'll just have to amuse themselves for a while. You look through my drawers, pick whatever you like and I'll be back. I'll help. Just a minute."
I popped my head around the banisters.
"We're going to be ten, fifteen minutes getting ready." I said. "And those beds aren't going to make themselves you know."
"Oh, right."Said Steve, putting down his beer.
Jim was at the foot of the stair, as if he'd been about to come up.
"Everything okay?"
"Perfect." I said. "We girls just need a minute in the boudoir."
He smiled in an odd way and I hurried back up.
Petey had selected a pair of flesh-coloured holdups, ivory panties and a little lycra cami.
"Your heart's desire?" I asked. He bit his lip and nodded.
"Okay. I'll do your hair and makeup." I said. "I'd imagined us taking our time over this and savouring it the first time, but I want to get back down there before they go off the boil."
"Sorry." Said Petey.
"Oh don't say sorry. I love that you asked me."
I pinned back his hair and worked on some makeup and did his eyes and some lipstick. His skin was so perfect there was no need for anything else. I worked some mousse into his hair and styled it in a more feminine look with the blowdryer. I clipped on some earrings, gave him a choker and topped it with a little hair clip.
"Too girly?" I asked.
"I hope he likes it." Said Petey.
I gave him a big hug. "I love you Petey. I love that you and Jim are together."
I pulled away. "Are we okay? Actually? I mean, if you don't want me and Jim to ..."
He laughed. "Oh don't be silly. I mean, now? How can you even think that?"
"Okay. Okay." I said. "Now. Should I change?" I think so. I need a slip too.
I had a short satin slip. I pulled off my sweatshirt and my bra and slid into it.
"Are we ready to get fucked?" I whispered.
Petey nodded and we hurried down, hand in hand.
They'd turned down the lights and made the beds very nicely. It looked slightly ludicrous, the widest bed in the world. Best of all though, they'd stripped off down to their own trunks or boxers. The fire was banked up and there was an orange glow from their legs and torsos that made them look even sexier, a little primal. Of course, they turned to watch us come down the stairs and their eyes went wide when they saw Petey.
Jim grinned and took his hand, pulling him to himself and kissing him straight away.
I went to Steve and Kevin and moved between them, pulling them to me.
We kissed and fondled and groped at each other until the fire inside was well and truly brought back to life.
......
I broke away, my breath short and my face flushed. Jim ad Petey were whispering, then Jim said.
"Petey says he'll suck anyone's cock, but he won't be offended if you decline."
"What do you say Jim?" Asked Steve.
"I say, that me and Petey have something a little friendly cock-sucking won't harm."
"How about some pussy stuffing?" I asked.
"I think we already know the answer to that question." He said. "And I think you just wanted to say 'Pussy-stuffing' out loud."
"Guilty. And it's Petey and I, by the way."
I took Petey's hand. "This time. I want to lie on the bed. My knees aren't right since the last time. Petey's going to lie beside me and anyone who wants their cock sucked only need present it to our mouths.
I felt Petey shudder. We clambered onto the bed and I draped my arm over his back, stretched out beside him, our elbows on the edge of the bed.
There was a little confusion about who was first and with who, so I took the opportunity to kiss him. His lipstick made it feel even more sexy. I let my lips slide wetly over his and lpped t him with my tongue. Drool coated our chins and I heard him moan deep inside. I sensed rather than felt a cock near my face. There were two Jim and Steve's. I was pleased i could tell who was who just from their cocks. I felt Kevin sit on the bed behind me. He han his hand over my neck and I felt him gather my hair.
"Is that okay?" He asked.
"Perfect." I purred. "I'd get a hair grip but I love feeling your hand on my head.
I opened my mouth and greedily slurped Steve's cock in deep. I reached for him and pulled his legs in closer. I let my drool coat all over his cock and then licked up and down before begining to bob my head as deep and far as I could. I lifted a leg and put it over Petey's feeling the nylon rasp on his stocking. I stroked his back, feeling his body move in time with mine. I gazed up at Steve and winked at him. Soon, he was tensing. I pushed Kevin off the bed and Steve pulled away. But it was Jim's cock that moved to my face.
I turned to see Petey, his eyes zoned out, Kevin's cock approahing him.
I locked eyes with Petey and slowly swallowed his boyfriend's cock down as far as I could.
He smiled, his eyes hooded.
I could feel the heat from the fireplace on one side, the soft slurping from Petey's and my mouths. It was so langorous, so unhurried.
I put my elbow down so I could reach with my other hand to Jim. I guided his hand behind my head, pressed on it as I slurped down on his shaft, then released the pressure as I bobbed up again. Then down, a little harder and faster, pressing his hand with mine. Then I gazed up at him and scarbbled my fingers over his, digging in with my nails. I craned my neck back, looking up high, licking his cock with my tongue and grinned, open mouthed at him, daring him to do as I'd mimed.
He nodded and I felt him grip my hair, then deliciously, I let my own neck go slack and let him guide my head down onto his cock. I burned inside. The straps of my top ug into the flesh of my shoulders. My legs slid over the bedcovers, looking for cooler spots. beside me, I could feel Petey shift and bob as he sucked first on Kevin, then on Steve. A spark popped in the fire. I felt so alive, so warm, so cosy. All I wanted was more of this.
Petey caught my eye. He looked totally zonked out. His eyes were not just clouded, but unfocussed. his mouth was sliding over Kevin's cock but he was too blissed to do anything with his hands. I rolled over and patted him gently.
"Come on baby. Lie back with me." I said.
"Petey?" Said Jim, a little concerned. "You okay?"
"Let's just give him a minute to collect himself okay?" I said.
I wriggeled us both up on the bed and lay back on the pillows.
"Nice job on the bed, by the way, fellahs." I said. "And the fire. It's all lovely."
Jim lay down beside Petey, and cradled his head in one arm.
Petey reached up to him and kissed him. He was trembling.
I reached my arms out to Steve and Kevin.
"Come on Steve." I said. "You didn't get a go on me last time. Kevin, would you cradle my head and shoulders like Jim is doing?"
As they joined me on the bed I pulled another pillow over and lay on it to raise up my torso. Kevin lifted me and put his arm behind me, and I put an arm around him. I kissed him on the neck and chest until I felt Steve's hands on my legs. I lifted them and opened wide for him.
He fumbled at the entrance, prodding painfully too high, then too low.
"Slide the tip up and down." I said. "It'll open for you."
Ever fastidious, he must have dried Petey's slaiva off before lambering onto the bed. But my pussy was full of juice. As his cock head slid over my lips it seeped out and I felt it slide in, press against the inner lips, then wonderfully press in deeper.
"Out and in. Gently and then firmly." I said. "Till you're buried in me."
I rocked my hips to help him, giggling at Kevin's face.
Feeling his thighs press against mine was wonderful.
"So deep." I gasped. "Just go for it honey. "Fuck me as hard as you like."
I hung on to Kevin and kissed him, grabbing him around the shoulders and gasping as Steve plowed me.
We'd given Petey and Jim some space but now I felt them edging over to lie beside me.
Petey gave me a grin. He was lying back too, his legs in the air. Jim was fixing the top of his hold up stocking, Petey's leg over his shoulder.
"You're back, pretty girl." I grunted. he tried to roll to kiss me but it was too awkward.
I was getting woozy myself. Steve, had shed his earlier over-sensitivity. He was giving it to me good. I heard him smack off my ass and thighs. Wonderful sensations poured out of me. He had wrapped an arm around my legs, and was thrumming over my clit with his fingers, maybe his thum. It felt just unspeakably good. Jim was pistoning into Petey. When had that started?
"Jess? Are you okay?" Asked Kevin.
"Okay? I'm fucking incredible." I moaned. "Oh fuck. I'm coming and I don't even know it."
It had built slowly but almost torturous sensations were flooding my body and my brain.
I heard Steve ask "Is she okay? Should I stop?"
"Nooo. Keep fucking me with that wonderful cock." I moaned, gripping so hard on Kevin he almost fell over. My back arched and I lost control of my legs and I think I may have bitten my lip.
Steve slowed and stopped and I fought to stop my legs from wobbling.
I rolled over and looked down on Petey. He looked amazing. He was biting his knuckle. I grabbed his wrists and loomed over him, kissing him, feeling Jim's bulk press against me as he kept fucking him.
I looked back over my shoulder, wiggled my ass at Kevin.
"Your turn honey." I said.
He had to manoeuvre my ass, but Steve helped and I concentrated on Petey while they worked on getting Kevin's cock into me.
"Feel good baby?" I asked him.
"Shit. Jess? So, so good." He moaned.
I looked over my shoulder to Jim.
"You gonna give your baby girl some of that in a minute?" I asked.
He just gazed at me. We were all kind of worked up.
I turned back to Petey. "I bet you wonder what you ever afraid of?"
"You did this ... for me." He groaned.
I didn't but I knew what he meant.
I felt Kevin finally, in position. He lifted one knee onto the pillow to raise me up a bit for him and then his cockhead was at my slit and then in.
I gasped, gripped Petey's wrists tighter.
"The cock. Going in. Best part." I said.
I let go his wrists, sank to my elbows over him, locked my mouth on his and kissed him until the hard fucking I was getting made it impossible. I reared up, pushing my elbows behind me. Kevins's hands were around my hips. "Grab me. Hold me. Please" I moaned.
He gripped me by the elbows so I rocked back onto him, shaking.
Jim and Petey were still fucking. I glanced around for Steve.
"Don't you have a cock I could suck?" I asked, struggling to keep my bearings as my insides began to liquify again and my brain overloaded with the experience. It felt so good. I loved being fucked like this. I could hear the fire again, and moaning, and the straps on my top, barely holding my tits, as they wobbled in the soft fbric. When I felt Jim's hands running through my hair I realised I wasn't totally there. I had Steve's cock in my mouth. I wasn't sure how I was resting on the bed. They were holding me up. Petey was beneath me. His mouth was on my nipples.
"Cuming. So hard." I groaned and my head cleared for a second and I could feel them all around me. My boys, enjoying me. I was still cumming when Jim flipped me onto my back and lay me down.
"Jim. Jim. I want you to come in me." I said.
"More Jess?" He asked. Was he concerned? I was in heaven.
My arm couldn't move. Petey was beside me, my arm beneath him, he was cradling my head.
"Yes more. You. I don't need to cum again. I just want you in me."
He bent back my legs and I felt the slick goop around my snatch as he pressed into me.
"Sorry. Am I a mess?" I asked. Kevin was on the other side. Steve was behind Petey. I could see him slowly storking Petey's cock.
"Hello." I thought. "We've all gone a bit gay." But I was saying it out loud.
As Jim's cock slid into my oozing hole, I lay back, trying to keep myself together.
"You've no idea how good you make me feel." I said. "The attention. Knowing you want me. It's all so good."
Kevin's hand strayed down to my pubic mound, rubbing gently. Petey lapped at my tits. I was building again.
"Being your girl is so good." I moaned. "It's everything. It's perfect."
I realised Steve had his cock in Petey's ass. He was slowly fucking him while he was reaching around to jerk him off.
Jim loomed over me. He slid in and out. I tried to rock beneath him to get more purchase but he was too heavy and he wouln't speed up no matter how I whined and made eyes at him.
"Slow down Jess. Take it easy." He said.
So I lay back and let him rock into me, letting it build again slowly. Looking around me I smiled fondly at the others then back to Jim.
"I love you." I mouthed to him. He just smiled, like he was in control, but I had more tricks. I cupped my tits in my hands. Petey was unable to concentrate by now. I opened my mouth a little, let my tongue lol out, then I slowly gripped him tighter with my pussy. Tighter and tighter. I saw his eyes roll up.
"Come on Jim. Ram me." I coaxed him. "Fuck your little Jess. Fuck me hard." I tempted. He slid in harder, a little faster. Now I could rock beneath him.
"Yeah baby. That's it. Stuff that little pussy." And he pressed on me, knocking out my breath and then he was thrusting hard and I began to feel it sweep over me again and Kevins' hands were on my breasts, kneading them and Petey was cumming, his seed sprting over my hip and my belly and I was consumed by it again but I could just keep my eyes locked on Jims as he thrust a final load into me.
He moved down and hugged me, his chest heaving. I clung on to him, as hard as I could, my pussy still spasming around him.
"Fuck Jess. I'm done." He said. "I hope you are too. I have nothing left."
"Okay. Okay" I said, patting his back, my head spinning.
"You can take the rest of the night off."
Kevin chuckled a little. Steve and petey looked kind of gooned out. We lay there for a minute, just breathing.
"Everyone happy?" I asked. "Are we all sufficiently fucked."
"Beyond sufficient." Said Jim, his voice muffled with pillow.
I extracted myself from Jim and went to the kitchen. I was pleased to see they'd cleaned up well.
"My boys." I murmured. Petey was behind me.
"Okay?" He said. He was a mess. His makeup ruined. His hair all over the place. He'd kept the holdups I noticed.
"Glowing." I said. "You?"
"So happy. Thank you."
I gave him a little kiss. I grabbed a cloth and rung it out, handed it to him. "Wipe yourself down." I said. He wiped where he could see and then I took it back and turned him so I could clean the cum from his ass and his thighs.
He rinsed it and then did me, starting with the mess on my hip.
"This is the not-fun part of being a girl." I said.
He gave me a look. "Even wiping off the jizz is lovely with you." He said.
I hugged him, then got. fresh cloth. "Go make them clean up." I said, "We need to go upstairs."
I fixed his face, cleaning off the makeup and made his hair neat again. He wanted to keep the holdups but I insisted he take them off. "You'd sweat. Trust me." I said.
I gave him a cotton nightie , which he grtefully accepted and I pulled on a pair of satin pyjama bottoms.
Downstairs, they'd fixed the bed and fetched glasses of water. I took one from Jim and drank deeply.
"No top?" He asked.
I shook my head and took his hand, clambered onto the bed, right to the middle.
"Middle is my spot." I announced. "And I don't mind being touched. Feel free to have a feel in the night."
I snuggled down beside Jim and let him spoon me.
The others got in too and Steve turned the dimmer down. Petey was the other side of Jim and Kevin the other side of me. Steve got in last but before he lay down he stretched over the others and gave me and Petey a kiss each.
"Good night girls." He said. In the dark, I felt Petey squirm in happiness. I put my arms around Kevin and pulled him tight to me. Jim spooned me on the other side so I was snugly sandwiched between them.
In my own bed, I often slept with no top. Now, of course, it felt different. If it was sunny the next day, I might go topless I thought. Definitley braless. I pulled Jims hands up till they were over my breasts. His hands were big and warm. Comfy. I snuggled back into him and felt him stiffen a little. I gripped his arms with mine and felt hm stiffen more. It felt good to be able to make him want me again so soon but I didnt want to tease him too much.
I thought about Petey. I knew some boys wanted to be girls. Often, people had assumed I wanted to be a boy. Carrie Agnew had kissed me once. She'd presumed, because I was so geeky and butch that I was a lesbian. It had been nice, but when she found her mistake she'd kinda freaked out. But it was different for Petey anyway. A butch girl, who wanted to be masciline didnt feel the same about boy's clothes as Petey'd felt about wearing my lingere. It was a sex thing. He wanted to be wanted. It was good to feel wanted. By people you liked. Loved.
I felt differently about all of them now. Steve and Kevin and Petey, but most of all Jim. It was a problem. I'd wanted to keep it all even. Nobody left out. Eveyone together. I'd wanted to be sure there was no jelousy. But it was me that was the problem. I loved Jim more than the others. I felt things about him, for him, that I didn't feel about Steve or Kevin or Petey. The sex had just made all that clearer. I loved them all more, but with Jim it was more again.
"Fuck." I thought to myself. "You fucked it up."
Jim moved behind me.
"Love you Jess." He murmured into my hair.
"Love you too." I whispered back.
"More." He said. Just one word. It was a problem.
I woke in the dark. I craned my neck up to read the clock. 4:30. My dream was fading but I could still grasp moments, strands. I was home. At home. I'd moved all of them into the house. My Mom wasnt happy. We were arguing. he was saying she didn't mind having them, but the sex all the time was a problem. I was constantly fucking. It was attracting comment from the neighbours. And I needed to put on clothes. I was naked. There was more. But I couldn't bring it back.
Jim was awake too. "Did I wake you." He whispered.
"Maybe."
I craned around. Nobody else was awake. Petey had rolled over. Kevin was sprawled out. Steve was yards away.
I turned to face him, realising as I did so that he had a full on erection. That was what he'd meant.
I felt for it. Stroked him.
"No." He whispered. "Can't do it quietly."
"Okay." I said. But I kept stroking.
"I have a problem Jim." I said.
"I know." He insisted.
"I love you more than the others." I said. "Different."
He put his hand on my wrist.
"It's okay." He said. "I know. Or I think I did. Petey knew."
Ah. That made sense.
"I need to know." I said.
He knew what I meant.
"Yes. Yes. Of course. Always." He said. "When you gave that speech. All together. I thought, 'Fuck. You missed your chance.' To be with you. I wanted to ask before. I thought I would here, this week. You beat me to it."
"I didn't really know 'till today." I said. "And now I've ruined it."
"How?"
"I can't be with everyone if I am with you."
"Why not?"
"Because. Because then I'm not with you."
"You are now."
"Huh? That ..."
"Look." He said. "You love me. I love you. It's special. Is there more?"
"Eh, well..."
"No. The answer is no. That's all that matters. Well figure it out at home. In the meantime, be with us all. I know you love it."
I smiled. I had mentioned it. I kissed him and tutned again, wriggling till his boner rested in the groove of my ass. Where it belonged.
I didn't know how we would make it work, but Jim was right. We loved each other and everything would be okay.
I felt Kevin getting up. I hadn't dreamed after I'd fallen asleep the second time. I caught his boxers as he stealthily rose.
"Sorry." He whispered.
"It's okay. What time is it?"
"Seven. I'm going to make breakfast."
I wriggled up too.
He waved me back but I shook my head and continued to follow him. In the doorway to the kitchen I looked back. The other three were still asleep. I noticed Jim and Petey were spooning now.
I closed the door to the kitchen.
"Aren't you cold?" Asked Kevin.
"A bit." I said. "But it's okay."
"I'll get you a tee shirt." He said, but I stopped him. "The house will warm up in a minute." I said. "I want to go topless. Do you mind?"
He shook his head, smiling.
I looked down at my chest. "They're so nice, aren't they? I love boobs. Other women's. My own. I want to show them off as much as I can today."
He rolled his eyes and I giggled. "Come on. Let's do this." I said. "I want to be all Mom and Pop for our boys."
"And girl." Said Kevin.
"Yeah, about that ...." I said.
As we made toast and coffee and eggs, I quizzed Kevin about Petey and Jim. Yeah, he and Steve knew about Petey. Petey'd struggled with his attraction to guys until he and Jim hooked up, or whatever they did. I remembered this time as Petey acting up all the time. I'd just put this down to general teen boy behaviour, but really he'd been conflicted all the time about boys and girls.
"Don't beat yourself up." Said Kevin. He adores you. He wouldn't have told you under torture. It's really only this last year, since he admitted it to Jim that he's got over it.
"And you guys have no problem with it, clearly?"
"Last night was a first. In several ways, but yeah. It's Petey right? But fuck, he looked amazing. Not just like the lingerie and makeup and stuff. Did you see his eyes?"
"I thought he was going to explode when I gave him the stockings." I said. "He's like all-in now."
"For here." Said Kevin. "Like you."
"Uh huh." I said.
We were done. It was 7:30. I went to the bathroom and peeked in. Our three beauies slept on.
Back in the kitchen, Kevin was pouring coffee.
"Please." I said when he offered me a mug.
Kevin was just a fraction older than Jim. he organised the cabin each year. He was the most organised and adult of us all. Tallest. Lean and wiry. His glasses made him look older and he gave off a kind of Dad vibe. A cool, scholarly kind of Dad vibe.
"Mom and Pop." He said.
I smiled. "Does Pop want some of Mom's sugar?"
He glanced at the door. "Just us?"
"Just a little." I said.
I came over and straddled him on his chair, still with my coffee mug. He'd drunk his already.
I pushed my boobs into his face and he sucked on one nipple. I could feel th het of the coffee on his mouth.
"Oh God." He sighed.
I stroked his hair with one hand and sipped my coffee.
"Work away, hubby. Use your hands." I told him.
He hesitated.
I bit my lip.
"We ... we shouldn't do this." He said.
"It's just ..." I started to say. But then I felt a pang. "You're right." I said. "I said I wouldn't do this. Shit. I am such a whore."
"No. No. Please don't say that." He said. "It's just ... You and Jim..."
"What? What about Jim?"
"Well. Like, how would you feel if he walked in now?"
I cringed. "Guilty. But I'd feel the same if any of them walked in."
He was too smart for that. How did he know?
"Really Jess? Is that really how you'd feel?"
I closed my eyes. "No. Sorry."
I sat up. Now my exposed tits felt shameful.
"Fuck. How do you know?" I asked.
He shrugged. I just do. I mean, from before. We see how you look at him. How you are with him. It's kind of obvious Jess. And then, last night. I mean, you're so generous. But you do it differently with him."
"I am a fucking idiot." I said. "I thought I was going to introduce you four bozos to the joys of sex and love. So fucking generous. But, turns out, I know way less about love than you four. Christ! When did I get to be so dumb and conceited?"
I felt wretched now. Petey? Jim? Steve and Kevin being totally okay with being gay. They all knew I was in love with Jim? From before? Before I did?
"Woah, woah." Said Kevin. "No no no. You're not."
"I fucking am!" I hissed, trying to keep my voice down. "I thought I was so cool but I know nothing. What am I fucking doing? I gave a big speech about being all together and no jealousy and look at me now, not even a day later. I knew nothing about Petey and Jim. Nothing! People I've known my whole lives. And I get it Kevin. You could just tell that I'm in love with Jim. I didn't know. And him and Petey? How does that even work. I'm fucking clueless. I'm as dumb as all those empty headed girls in school that I look down on. They probably know more about sex and love than I ever will."
I whirled around. Jim wasn't behind me, but I must have heard him outside. He was opening the door.
He glanced around.
"Shh. Shhh." He whispered gently. But he didn't mean just to keep my voie down. He meant, calm down.
He enfolded me in his arms. Emotional and ashamed I fought him. I didn't want comfort. I wanted to expunge my guilt and shame.
Kevin opened the box and took out the bag and the balls. He passed them around, and each boy took a black one and a white one. he passed me the bag and the last two balls.
"I already voted." I said. "But okay. I showed them all the white ball and dropped it into the bag. Then I passed it to Petey.
We all looked away. Petey put his hand in the bag and withdrew it. We were all well practised in Devil's Advocate and could palm the ball we held back.
The bag passed around. They all glanced at me as they voted and I gave them each a warm smile.
I got up when the bag was full and stood back in the middle again. Jim passed me the bag.
"No comebacks. It's okay to say no." I said. "I can totally understand. I know that if there's a black ball in here, it's because you just think this is a bad idea, not that you don't want to."
I reached into the bag, once again acutely aware of just how slutty my costume was. But I liked it. Liked the way they looked at me. Even if there was a black ball in the bag, I might keep on dressing like this for the whole week. I'd brought enough clothes.
"I feel there ought to be music." I said.
"Isn't it tense enough?" Said Kevin. "I can barely breathe."
I rummaged, felt around and pulled out a ball, showed it to them. It was white.
"That could be mine." I said.
I dropped it back in the box and reached in again.
"If one of these is black, it doesn't mean someone doesn't love you." Said Jim.
"I know. But maybe I should have gone commando." I said.
There was nervous laughter. I showed them the next ball. Also white.
It was quiet now.
I reached in, grabbed the remaining three in my hand and pulled them all out at once.
"Fuck the build-up" I said. "I'm too impatient."
They were all white. I felt my legs tremble.
"Okay." I said. "I'm really not sure how I would have felt if one had been black."
We all looked at each other.
"Did you imagine what comes next?" Said Jim.
"I kind of imagined you'd all look a lot more happy than you do now. You all look kinda shocked and nervous."
"It's just. I think ... I'm speaking for all of us." Said Jim. "It's a wild idea. I, we, think of you like, well, a sister. A cool sister. I know every one of us thinks you're amazing. And you look amazing. But kinda like you, we never would dream of well, asking you out, because, well, the same reasons."
"And we're all pussies." Said Steve. "None of us have girlfriends. Or ever have."
"And I've never had a boyfriend. I just have you guys. But I'm really excited to do this and, well, yeah, I did imagine what it would be like. Many times. So many times. But you know, this is for you guys too. And I know it's harder for you..."
"Why?" Said Petey. "Why is it harder?"
Kevin answered him. "Because we have to do it in front of each other."
"Yes." I said. "But it's okay. I promise it will be. And I kinda need someone to give me a hug now, or I'm going to lose all my nerve."
They all sat there, still slightly stupefied.
I gave Petey a longing look, willing him to make a move. He was youngest, and I had to admit, the most malleable.
He glanced around. I realised something.
"You don't want to be first to move? I'll make it easy for you. I want you to come over and kiss me Petey. I chose you."
He struggled to his feet and then, to my surprise, pulled off his top and teeshirt in one move, revealing a surprisingly fit and hairless torso. Then he dropped his sweatpants and kicked off his shoes, leaving him in snug, boner-hugging trunks.
"Fuck! You look great!" I said and realised I was clapping my hands together. "I didn't think you'd strip off. Keep the trunks. I like them."
I glanced around. "I've seen all you guys near naked loads of times. I know what you look like under your clothes, more or less. So, don't feel embarrassed. My everything is on show here, so no shyness. I want all of you, big and small, slim and heavy. Okay?"
I held my arms out to Petey and he shyly crossed the couple of yards. I wrapped my arms round him and smothered him in kisses. I ran my hands over his ass and giggled.
"Well come on." I said to the others. "Join in."
I grinned at Petey and put his arms around me tighter. His boner pressed against my belly. The head of his cock poked from the waistband and left a slimy trail over my belly.
"Oh yeah, Petey. Good boy." I said and kept smiling at him as I glanced around. They were all checking each other out as they undressed.
In truth, I had no idea how this would go. My fantasies morphed from them agreeing to this to full-on group sex with no clear path from one to the other. But I liked being held by Petey and I wanted to give them all hugs and kisses and reassurance, so as soon as I felt Kevin beside me I slid from Petey to him and kissed him too and put an arm around him while keeping myself pressed against Petey. Then I turned again, pulling at Petey and Kevin to keep pressed against me as I turned to Steve and put my arms over his shoulders and kissed him.
As I turned to Jim, I said. "This is so good, fellas. I love it. Exactly as I imagined. Press in close to me please. I'd love it if you rubbed your cocks on me please."
Jim looked at me like 'Do you know what you're doing?' but I just laughed and kissed him.
Jim was the heaviest of the four. He was beefy and a lot of weight hung on his broad frame. But truth be told, it was Jim who featured in most of my masturbatory fantasies. I slid my hand into his trunks and ran my hand up and down his cock. The first I'd ever felt. It was so much harder than I'd imagined. Stiff, literally like a bone, but more mobile at the base than I'd imagined. I'd heard or read that the tip was best and I let my hand caress over the top of it as I kissed him.
I gave him a grin as I moved back into the middle.
"Come on guys. I should be feeling eight hands on me. Please. This is for me too. I want you to get a good feel. My tits. My ass. Everywhere. It feels amazing."
"You're sure Jess?" Asked Steve, sounding very hesitant.
"Yes. I'm so sure." I said, turning to him and reaching for his cock too. "I feel wonderful. You're making me feel wonderful. And I feel safe and secure and loved, with all of you. Just go wild. Now's your chance. I want you to feel anywhere you want."
Eight pairs of hands bumped into each other over my breasts and I laughed and reached for Kevin and Petey's cocks again, and I wriggled between them, bumping against them and pulling them closer to me.
"Oh fuck. This is so good." I said. "I love it. Thank you."
Kevin gave a nervous giggle.
"That's funny?" I asked.
"Jesus, Jess. You're thanking us?"
"You don't know how nice it feels. Being the centre of attention. Being wanted. All your lovely hands on me and your stiff cocks. Please, get closer. I won't break. Press those boners against me."
"Do you want us to undress you?" Asked Jim. I loved Jim. He was the only one who was showing some initiative.
"Yes. Good idea, but not yet. I want to suck you guys with my mouth while I'm wearing my slutty outfit.
"Fucking hell!" Said Petey. "Jess! Were you always like this?"
I turned to him laughing. "Sometimes. Everyone has a slutty side. I'm just lucky enough to play it out with four lovely guys. We're having fun here Petey. Well, I am. Are you?"
"Sure Jess. Sure. It's amazing. I just want to make you happy."
"I know Petey. That's why I love you. All of you."
"We love you too Jess." Said Jim.
I had his cock in my hand and I turned back to him. "I know Jim. And that was a good suggestion. Don't make me do all the leading. Use your imagination. And to show my appreciation, you get your cock sucked first. My first ever blowjob. But I want everyone to have a go in mouth. Okay?"
I slid to my knees, pulling his trunks down as I went.
His cock was fascinating to me. It bounced from side to side. It was stiff but it moved like the arm on a chronometer. His foreskin was stretched way down and the head was almost purple. The little line where it connected was taut and white, almost painful looking. I giggled. It looked funny, like a physical expression of how he was feeling. If I had one, it would have been all purple and almost bursting.
I opened my mouth and closed my lips around it. I'd heard and read, that although it was called a blow job, there shouldn't be air, and no actual blowing. Just lips and tongue and as tight as possible. Ideally moving almost all the way out and in as deep as possible.
I made as good a seal as I could and slid my mouth down. It was warm and smooth and immediately I felt it swell more and twitch. I'd moved my hand onto Petey's cock, but my other hand flailed around looking for another.
I slid back up again, seeing Jim loom above me. I grabbed his cock in the free hand and grinned at him. He looked stunned.
"Lovely." I said. "Is it good?" He just looked lost. I glanced around.
"Kevin." I said, you stand beside Jim, close in to him, and I'll do you at the same time. Steve, yeah, " I said, getting hold of his cock. "You get in close too. You and Petey are next."
They were all just amazed. Steve looked kinda freaked out. Me doing this was just so much of a shock for them they just couldn't enjoy it. Still, they moved where I'd daid.
I moved back to Jim's cock.
"Slower, slower please Jessie." He said.
"It's too fast?" I asked. I'd felt I was moving quite slowly over his cock.
"It's too much." He said. "Are you okay?"
"I'm great." I said. "The only problem is you guys look so freaked out. Don't be please. Just enjoy it. Please. Enjoy me. I want to do this. I want to make you guys feel good. I love all of you and I feel wonderful. I want to do more and more. I won't regret this. I promise. Please. Just .. talk to me. Tell me I look good. That it feels good. It does for me."
"It feels amazing." Said Jim. "Just slow down."
"You look pretty Jess." Said Petey. "You always do. You're so beautiful. You didn't need to get dressed up."
In answer I slid my mouth down over Petey's cock, and looked up at him. It was hard to smile at the same time but I tried. Petey's cock did the swelling, twitching thing too and his mouth made a perfect 'O'. I glanced at Steve and Kevin. I could slide my hand over Kevin's easy enough but Steve on my left was getting a raw deal. But they also looked kind of stupefied.
I released Petey's cock. "Switch out." I said, sitting back. "Jim with Kevin. Petey with Steve." As the shuffled I said. "I wanted to get dressed. I know it's slutty. I never wear stuff like this but I wanted to try it. I thought it would be easier for you guys too. Sexier. Not like boring Jess."
"Fuck, Jess. You're never boring."
I laughed. "Okay. But please, please, talk to me. All of you. Tell me what you want. What feels good or bad. I need some feedback, please."
"Okay." Said Steve. "Please do Kevin first. If you put it in your mouth I might cum right now."
I giggled. "See. That's both feedback and encouragement. Cool. Kevin, can you hold my hair back while I do it? And run your fingers through my hair and hold my head. "
"You look beautiful." Said Petey as I sucked Steve's cock into my mouth.
They were all different. Not big differences in size. But they were different shapes and levels of wobblyness. Plus, they were all differently hairy. Petey had soft wisps and Kevin a thick curly matt.
My mouth had an incredible effect on all of them though. I knew boys liked blowjobs but not how much. It was too much. I learned to slow down the movement of my tongue and to lick and tease them more than just sliding straight down.
Their hands on my head felt amazing. They were gentle, maybe too gentle, but I loved feeling the contact.
"More hands on me please." I said, switching to Steve.
"Steve, if you cum, it's okay. Just let it go."
"Okay" he breathed.
But as soon as my mouth went over his cock he felt different. His cock more pulsed than throbbed and I felt him subtly stiffen his whole body. I'd read that once a guy started, he couldn't stop it so I just slicked my mouth over him and slid down and back up as hard as I could. He pulsed in my mouth and I felt him give an involuntary thrust into me. I didn't gag but then I felt the hot jet of his semen zip from his cock and straight past my gullet into my throat. I just let it shoot in, not swallowing. I pressed down harder and he pulsed again, another jet, more and faster. I had a sudden sense of seeing myself, on my hunkers, hands on their cocks and receiving Steve's jizz direct into my belly. It felt amazing. Woozy. I loved it.
He pulsed again, and then again, weaker each time and I sucked on it, swirling my tongue over it.
The jet of semen had been so much stronger than I'd been expecting. Like it was pumped from a bicycley pump, hard. His cock had been deep in my mouth and my throat open so it had just slid into me like an injection. If I'd tried to swallow I think it would have come out of my nose.
He was still hard but nothing more was coming out so I slid off him, looked up.
"Fuck! Are you done? Is it okay?" I asked.
"Yes. I'm sorry." He gasped. "It was just too much."
"Don't be sorry. It was lovely. I loved it." I said, springing to my feet. My calves were sore from kneeling. I threw my arms around him and hugged him. Kissing him.
"I loved it. I loved it. I hope it was good for you Steve." I whispered.
"Oh Jess. You're just incredible." He wheezed.
"I want more. But my knees are sore." I said, turning to the others.
They were looking at Steve like he was the first soldier to get hit on the mission.
"Suggestions?" I asked.
"You want to keep going?" Asked Jim.
"Fuck yeah!" I said. "Why does it feel like I'm dragging you? Do you want to go on or not?"
"Yes. Yes." Said Jim. "Sorry. It's just, girls' aren't supposed to like ..."
"What do you know?" I said. "I'm not 'girls'. I'm Jess. And I love having you guys in my mouth and I loved Steve's spunk shooting into my belly. And I want all those cocks in me before we're done. Are you guys up for this or not? Because if not ..."
"How about you sit on the couch and we stand in front of you." Said Kevin.
"Good boy." I said. "Better idea. You sit on the couch and I'll sit on your lap. Jim and Petey in front. Kevin, come over and hold me on the couch.
Jim had to push Kevin towards the couch. As I backed up, I realised he didn't understand what I meant.
"Not actually on your lap, dummy. Push that cock out." I said.
"Fuck, Jess!" He said. "You mean ..."
"Of course. And hold me. I'll be wobbly."
He slid forward and I slipped off the satin shorts. They all stared.
I grinned at them, feeling both shy and brazen at the same time.
"I'm so glad I'm doing this with you guys for the first time." I said. "I feel so safe with you. I can be as slutty as I want to be. Not slutty, just, I dunno, open. I know it's just between us, and you won't be all weird and judgey. If you weren't all so shy, it'd be perfect."
"We're not shy." Said Jim. "We just want you to be safe."
"I'm on birth control." I said. "I'm not an idiot."
"I meant ..."
"I know what you meant." I said, gently. "I am safe. I'm so happy. Just ... just try to get into it, okay?" I offered him and Petey my arms.
"Now lower me onto Kevin's cock."
They did, and I felt Kevin's hands below me, and Steve held my shoulders. His cock was softer but not back to normal. It wobbled in his lap. I felt for Kevin's cock, still rock hard. I slid the head over the lips of my pussy and it was so wet it slid straight in. I let my weight go down and suddenly it was in me, buried in deep. It wasn't sore, so much as it knocked my breath out. Like the shock of cold water, though it was warm. I groaned and lifted myself an inch and then deep back down, grinding onto him. Kevin tensed behind me.
"Okay Kev?" I gasped.
"Jesus. Yes." He gasped. And then I felt him reach around me, wrapping his arms over my breasts and cupping them and that felt so good I cried out.
"Yes Kevin, Oh yes." I gasped, feeling tears on my lids. "Fuck yeah. Hold me.
Fuck yes. I want to be your girl." I cried, not sure where that came from even as I said it.
I reached for their cocks, found Petey's and pulled him to me, bending to get him into my mouth, then my hand found Jim's and I gobbled on it too. Then back again.
I was trying to bounce on Kevin's lap but with my hands occupied it was hard.
"Fuck it into me Kevin. You do it." I said.
"I'll come." He gasped, gripping me tight.
"Then do. Please. That's what it's for."
I could feel his body tightening already and I ground harder, already regretting the time I'd lose switching out. I was ready for the same jets but all I felt was him thrusting harder, and more uncontrolled. My mouth bucked on Jim's cock. Or was it Petey's? Steve was holding back my hair and I felt more hands on my head.
I looked up at them, grinding my pussy hard on Kevin's cock even as he kept spasming into me. I reached for their wrists and pulled them onto my breasts, then leaned back against Kevin till my head was beside his.
"Thank you Kevin, honey." I cooed to him. "Your first go in my pussy. First of many I hope."
They were still rubbing my breasts, Steve kind of lost beside me.
"Come on. Who wants me next? I'll lie on my back. Petey? Cool. Jim, Steve, keep your cocks where I can suck them or hold them. Lift me. Yeah. Don't make me do all the work."
Gently, Jim lifted me off Kevin and I lay back with my head on the armsrest.
Petey fetched a cushion for me to hold up my back.
Petey nervously clambered onto the sofa and I lifted my legs.
"Stevie. Will you hold them open for Petey please."
He caught hold of an ankle. Jim slid his hands over my breasts. "You want to be our girl?"
I grinned. He got it. "Yeah. Your Jess. Who you fuck all the time."
He looked over his shoulder. "Kevin, will you cradle Jess's head?"
"Yes Jim. That's good. I want all of you on me."
I flicked my eyes up to Kevin as I felt his hands beneath my head. "That feels so good. All of you on me at once. No-one left out. Yes, guys, yes. Please. More touching. Come on Petey. My lovely Petey. Slide that perfect cock of yours into me. I'm so ready for you."
He pressed it on me, finding his purchase and then slowly slid it in, gasping as he did so.
I groaned, loudly, twisting in their arms.
I got Jim's cock in my right hand and lifted the other to grip Kevin's wrist.
"Oh Petey, Petey. That's so good. Fuck! I've loved you my whole life. Since we were four."
"I love you too Jess. Always. Always. You're so amazing. I hope this feels good for you."
It did. Feeling Petey between my legs felt incredible. He thrust deep, and as he went in to the hilt I ground my crotch on him, trying to hook him into me with my ankles. I pulled Jim's cock into my mouth and then felt for Steve's hand, finding his fingers, he wriggled, not sure what i wanted but I pulled his fingers down to my clit and clumsily rubbed them near the button, then released him, but he didn't get it, and just stroked over my pubic hair. I caught him again and showed him again, then he got it.
"Pwhah!" I spat out Jim's cock again. "Yes Stevie. There. You feel it? Hard and fast please."
"Like this?" He asked. Steve liked to learn.
"Slightly lighter but faster and slow down and speed up every few seconds."
I licked at Jim's cock as Stevie tried. I grinned at him and Jim grinned back.
"Oooooh." I moaned. "Yeah. That's good. When you hear me moaning it's good."
"Petey. When you feel yourself getting ready, you can lean forward and pin my legs back to my ears if you like. Really give it to me. i can take it. I want it, all you have.
Jim had experimented with teasing and squeezing my nipples.
I nodded at him, bit my lip. "You could do that twice as hard, please." I whispered and then shucked at his cock until he helped me suck it into my mouth again.
This was exactly what I'd wanted. Kevin was lifting my head so I could see. I scrabbled at him, found his wrists in both hands and squeezed hard.
Petey was really going for it now. His cock was pistoning in and out. I could hear his waist slap against my wet crotch as well as feel it, and then he began to push forward and I let Jim loose from my mouth.
"Uh huh Petey. Yeah? You ready? Your Jess wants you. I love you. I want you to cum inside me. Fuck your Jess nice and hard, my perfect lovely Peteeey."
Steve's hand was trapped between my thigh and belly as Petey pressed down hard as he got close. I craned my neck up to him and Kevin was smart enough to help me so I could kiss Petey even as he spasmed and pulsed deep inside me. I could have come then if I'd let myself but I wanted to save it for Jim.
Petey stayed locked to me, and I smothered his face in kisses, giggling at his tortured looks. "Oh baby, baby baby. You made me feel so good."
"You all do." I said. "Feeling you all touching me feels incredible. The best part. I hope you're having as good a time as I am."
They all murmured assent.
"But I'm done now. Sorry Jim."
I got him for just a second and then he smiled. I loved him so much.
"Come on. I want to lie with my legs over the edge so the boys can fondle my tits and kiss me while you do me.
I looked around as I slid forward and turned.
"More kissing please. And these puppies need hands stroking and squeezing them all the time. And my nipples need firm, gentle pinching. And I want cocks near my face all the time so I can hold them and suck them."
I grinned. They were used to me ordering them around all the time. This was nothing new.
"And if you could all enjoy yourselves a bit more, that would be great too." I said.
"Jess?" Asked Petey, nervously. "Did you ... Did you come?"
"Not yet." I said. "I could have any time, especially with you inside me. But I'm trying not to, yet. In case I'm too flaked out before you all get to come."
I was in position. I beckoned Jim between my legs.
I looked around. "I want you all to watch me. Join me. If you guys want to jerk off, that would be cool. I only have one mouth and two hands is really hard."
Still, I grabbed Steve and Kevin as Jim prepared to enter me. I nodded to him. "Please Jim. Talk to me." I said. Then I grunted and my eyes shut as he stretched me open on his cock.
This felt different straight away. Jim caught my thighs in his hands and I hooked my legs around him. he could slide into me more easily and the feeling of being in his control, his firm hands gripping me was incredible.
"Jesus Fucking Christ!" I swore and immediately a warm glow rose from inside me.
My neck was buried into the back of the sofa so on his thrusts there was resistance when he pushed in hard. I could see him, my head craned forward and he looked at me kindly, his eyes full of tenderness. Kevin had reached down for my clit to rub it. He stopped, and Steve took over, copying Kevin. Both their hands were mashing over my tits. I could feel Petey behind me, stoking my hair.
"Oh boys. I love all of you. You make me feel amazing. I love being your girl. I'll always be your girl."
"We love you Jess." Said Jim. "You're the cleverest, coolest girl in the whole world. Being your friend is the best part of our lives. We'd o anything for you.You're our perfect, beautiful girl. We just want you to be happy and safe."
"I'm cumming now." I gasped. "Please don't stop. Watch me come for you boys. This is me orgasming for you. Jesus. It doesn't stop."
Kevin and Steve were both beating themselves off. I'd managed to lick and suck on them a bit but with all the hands and being pounded so hard it was difficult to keep my mouth on them.
My body was wrenched and tensing as if steel cables inside me were snapping. When I masturbated my orgasm would peak and last over eight to ten seconds, but this rolled on. It was too much, but I fought to keep going. If I'd asked them to pause or slow down it would break the moment.
I felt the room spin, dim. All I could see was Jim's broad frame, thrusting in time with my slow pulsing orgasm.
It subsided a little and I was aware of the cocks near me, the sweat on Jim's chest, making his hair slick.
I glanced at Kevin and Steve. "On my breasts, please." I moaned. Then I locked eyes on Jim as well as I could. "Now's the time Jim. Pump it in me. Please baby."
I licked my lips, surprisingly dry as Kevin and then Steve spasmed white semen over my wobbling breasts. It looked incredible. Jim came, his cock buried deep in me. This time I felt his jet deep inside. He shuddered, mouthing "I love you." as he did.
I wrapped my arms around him. I thought he'd hold back from the jizz on my chest but he wrapped his arms around me and kissed me and buried his face in my neck as I chuckled weakly.
I felt more hands on me and I glanced over his shoulder at them, giving them a happy smile.
"I think Jim's a bit emotional." I said.
I pushed him up. There were tears in his eyes. I gave him my most reassuring smile.
"You were worried I'd have regrets." I said, shaking my head. "None. I'm so glad we did this. I loved all of it. You were all great and I feel so close to you all. My heart is only filled with love for all of you."
They all reached to me and touched me, gently, which made tears, more tears stand out on my eyes.
"I am totally drained though." I said. "And I just want to lie here for a while."
"I'll eh, get a cloth." Said Kevin, always practical.
They started to gather my clothes. I grabbed Petey's hand. "Sit with me." I said. "Want cuddles."
I wriggled into his arms. When Kevin returned with a damp cloth, Petey took it and gently wiped all the cum from my breasts and my crotch. Steve brought me a glass of water and a chocolate bar. As soon as I saw them, I realised just how much I wanted them.
I scarfed my chocolate and sipped water as they tidied up a bit and pulled their trunks back on.
Steve handed me back my panties but I just put them beside me. I felt too lazy to get dressed again. When they were done I beckoned the other three over.
"Let's talk." I said.
Kevin threw his head back, like he'd rather do anything else.
"No." I said, communication is important. "We need to get it all out in the open."
"Like what?" Said Steve.
"Like how we do we feel about all this." Said Jim.
"I think I feel okay about it." Said Petey. "If Jess is happy, then I'm happy."
"Me too." Said Kevin.
"Okay, but how do you feel about me now? Embarrassed? Ashamed? Do you think you'd feel uncomfortable being alone with me now?"
There was silence, which I took to mean at least a partial yes. But then Jim said. "Not because we has sex but because, all the emotion. I ... I love you Jess ... and even though, weirdly, I don't feel jealous. I just think, I'd want to, well, tell you that, and touch you and well, be goofy."
"Is that a problem?"
"It is if you don't want it."
"But I do. From all of you. This isn't just sex."
"It isn't?" Said Steve.
"No. I really do love you. I want to be close to you all. Closer. I like to be touched. I want those little signs of affection. I know it's selfish. One girl. Four guys. And I know it will fall apart one day. You'll all get girlfriends who you can have all to yourselves. But in the meantime, I want your love. I want to be your girl."
"You can be our girl without having sex with us." Said Petey.
"Jesus, Petey." Said Steve, but I could tell he was joking.
"I know honey. But I want to. I really, really want to. And I know, I could have sex with you guys without it being a crazy gang-bang but that's what I wanted, and like I said before, I think even now, if I were to have sex with any of you alone or even with just one of you not there, it's not the same. It'd be wrong. And all together, well, yeah, I thought it would be crazier, but you're all so tender and sweet. It was lovely."
"You really don't feel bad at all, do you?" Said Kevin.
"Should I?" I asked. "I wanted to do it. You all could have said no, so I know you all wanted to. We're grown ups, or well, old enough. You guys treated me with respect and love. What's wrong with it?"
"Nothing." Said Jim. "But it's not just the shock, it's finding out that the tomboy nerd we always loved is a raging sex fiend underneath."
I laughed. "You know, I always have been. I've been diddling myself for a long, long time. You think that was crazy? You should see what goes on in my head."
"And do you think you've got it out of your system?" Said Jim.
I shook my head. "No. I'm not trying to. I want more. I'm hornier than ever. It takes girls a while longer to come down. And I have a long way to come down. But you mean, in general. I want, fuck, I feel bad saying this. I want to do this at least once a day while we're here. But I know that's a lot to ask. Especially since we all have to feel like it at the same time."
"Do it again?" Said Kevin, astonished. it took me a while to realised he was half kidding.
"Could we? I don't mean now. But at some point? Maybe tomorrow?" I asked.
Jim found my eyes and just nodded. Petey gave me a squeeze and an ironic sigh. "For you, Jess, anything."
Steve was leaning against the couch. He gave my hand a squeeze and kissed it. "Of course, whenever you want."
Kevin threw back his head.
"Okay, I'll say it. I jerked off in the bathroom after we got here. I dunno why. I think, honestly, it was riding beside you in the van. When you sat on me, I was thinking, if I hadn't jerked off just a few hours ago, I'd have cum right then. That's how I was able to last any time at all. And then I jerked off again. I thought at first, when you said to, that I'd never be able to do it. It was so sore, but it was so fucking incredible, and I was thinking. Maybe this will never happen again in my whole life. But now, Jesus, I am aching."
"Way too much information." Said Steve. "But thanks for admitting that. I felt so bad when I went off so early."
I was laughing. "I thought, at the time, wow, Kevin can really hold on. But thanks Kevin. You were so good."
"I was so nervous." Said Jim. You kept wanting to blow us, and I was thinking all the time, just think of anything else, sports, cookery, weather reports. I just didn't want to cum so quick..."
"But why? Why not?"
"Because, well, I wanted, ... to be in you."
I smiled.
"... And then when you moved everyone around. I was thinking. Shit. I'm going to like, thrust once and then cum. It'll be the biggest anti-climax ever. And you'd said, you were saving it. Shit. I was, so convinced it'd be like a bad joke."
"Oh baby. Baby, no. Please. Don't say that. Are you all like that? Think you have to perform?"
"Yeah." Said Steve. "I was so embarrassed when I just came straight away. It was so much, so fast and I just couldn't help it. I didn't have Kevin's advantage."
"Fuck embarrassed." I said. "It was lovely. And you got to go again. Please, guys. No need to try to impress me. I'm not keeping score. I just want you guys to enjoy yourselves with me."
They nodded. I was feeling a bit more energy. I pulled on my panties.
"Okay. I'm dressed again." I said. "Are we going to play 'Commanders' or what?"
We did. It was just the same, but different. Not as if it hadn't happened, but we did get involved in the game. As I sat on the floor, I hugged and caressed each of them and gave them little kisses. I loved doing this, feeling close to them. Showing my affection gave me a warm glow. When I went to the bathroom or fetched snacks, I switched where I was sitting, so as to give them each some attention. We held hands. They stroked my hair or put a hand on my thigh. I felt a buzz and a warmth that had always been there, but now it was buzzier, warmer.
In the bathroom, I inspected myself. No bruises, and my pussy felt tender but not sore. I washed it better than the wet cloth had done and more jizz oozed out. When the game was done I had a quick shower and changed into some pantyhose and a sweatshirt. Not much different than normal, but the pantyhose was more revealing and I opted for no panties.
I'd started to towel my hair when Petey came up. "We're making hot dogs. Do you want beer or wine ?" He asked.
"Neither, coke please." I said. "I'll be there in a minute."
He was about to go back down but I motioned for him to stay.
"Jess wants coke." He hollered down.
"Is there something you need" he asked.
"Just company." I said. "Is that okay?"
"Of course." He replied. He watched me towelling my hair.
"Why not use a drier?" He asked.
"More damage." I said. "I already blow dried this morning."
He watched for a little longer. "Could I?" He asked.
I smiled. "Of course."
He happily took the towel and copied what I'd been doing. Rubbing a lock of my hair between two hands of towel.
"I'd never have asked to do this before." He said. "But I'd have wanted to."
A thought flashed into my mind. Something his sister had told me, years before. My brain said no, but I was still so loved up and woozy I found myself saying it.
"You like girls Petey." Not a question
"Yeah." He laughed.
I turned to him.
"Would you like to be one?"
"Fuck? What?" He spluttered.
"I think you would." I said. "You're different to the others. Lovely. If you want. If you ever ... want to ... you could be a girl with me. Just you and me."
"What the fuck Jess?" He protested, but he looked unconvincing.
"It's okay." I said. "You can forget I said it. But I mean it. I'd never tell. No-one. Not the guys. No-one. It would be nice. If you want to. You just have to say."
"I don't want to be a girl, Jess. Shit, we just had sex."
"Okay." I said. "I won't press it."
I sat there for a moment.
"I love you doing my hair." I said. "It feels so good. Thanks."
He kept rubbing.
I glanced around. He looked like he was going to puke. I was about to tell him to forget I'd said anything when he blurted out, urgently but very quiet.
"I sucked Jim's cock."
"Okay." I said gently.
There was a silence again.
"Can I ask you? Did you ask him to or did he ask you?"
He closed his eyes. "I asked him. I said I wanted ... to try it ... to see if I was gay."
"Okay."
"And. Fuck. I shouldn't have told you it was Jim. I swore I'd never tell. I should have said just some guy."
"It matters that it was Jim." I said.
"Yeah? Why?"
"Because he loves you." I said.
He shook, almost like a tremor.
"Yes. I couldn't have asked anyone else."
"Thank you for telling me." I said. "I think, maybe this isn't the right thing to say. But I think it's lovely."
He rolled his eyes.
"But actually, I meant something else before. Do you like to feel pretty? Feminine? I meant, more, like you could wear some of my clothes, and I could do your hair. Maybe makeup. For fun."
"Fuck. Jess." He breathed.
"Because, I think you'd like that." I said. "More, even than sex. And if I could do that for you.With you. Nothing would give me greater pleasure."
He looked like he might be about to cry. I sloughed off the towel and put my arms around him. "Being a girl is great. So nice." I whispered. "Wearing panties. Liking boys. It's all good. We could do it together. Or just the clothes. If it would make you happy."
He trembled. I could feel his overwhelming desire. How easy it was to do something that meant so much to him.
"I would like that." He murmured into my neck, his voice breaking.
"Okay." I said. "I don't need to know more about you and Jim. I love that you told me. I know he'll understand. But you need to tell him, that you told me, okay? I really, really don't want to know secrets between you."
He nodded.
"You get why that secret is different to the girly one, right?
He nodded. "I'll tell him."
"Okay. Let's get hotdogs."
We ate on the stoop. The sun was setting. The guys drank beer and told jokes. I didn't want to drink because I wanted a clear head. I was still hornier than a hound and I wanted to get more that night so I didn't want booze.
The wooden porch floor had splinters and to save my stockinged feet, Kevin fetched my slippers. I hadn't asked him to. He just appeared with them after he saw me gingerly picking my way across the floor.
What was more surprising was that the other guys didn't tease him about it. When my coke was empty, Jim poured me some more.
"You guys are being awfully nice." I said. "I should let you fuck me more often."
Kevin laughed. "When you were upstairs. We talked. We were talking about, you know, having sex and what part was the best."
"Yeah? I wish I'd heard that."
"Uh huh. And Jim said the best part was when you said you felt safe with us."
"Actually I said when you said you loved us, but we knew that already."
"And we agreed. And it does feel good. More than good. And we were talking, and we said, we kind of treat you like one of the guys. And I know you like it that way. But now, we, well, we wanted to, for a while, treat you like a girlfriend."
I felt my belly tighten. "And you do nice things for a girlfriend?"
"Yeah." Said Steve. "Maybe it's annoying?"
"No. No, it's not." I said, trying to get my emotions under control.
"I knew it would be like this. At the start, all I could think of was sex. How much I wanted it. But I knew it would release, all these ... feelings. And I wanted that too.
But it's so strong. So much. I love being your girlfriend. The sex just made me love you guys all the more. So, thank you. It's lovely."
The sun was down. A sensor on the porch made the light come on, making us all start.
"What now?" Asked Kevin. "Another game? Sit here? Go inside and shoot the shit?"
They'd all turned to me. "Or sex?" I said, joking.
"Yeah. Or that." Said Kevin.
"How about charades?" I asked. Me and Petey against you three.
"Well that's hardly fair." Said Jim.
"You can't take two against three?" I asked.
"Not that. The two of you are like mind readers. You're so alike."
Was there an awkward silence at that? Maybe.
"Sure. There's an app for the titles." Said Kevin and he started clearing the glasses.
Steve helped him. I gave Petey a look and then Jim.
"I'll help wash up." I said.
"No. Stay." Said Petey. "Please."
Jim looked confused.
"I told her. About us. I'm sorry." Said Petey. "Not all of it. Just, that I ... gave you a blowjob."
"Woah!" Said Jim. "I mean, it's okay. I understand. But why stop there?"
"Jess said to. Till I told you I'd told her."
"Okay. Okay. But, like, it wasn't just that. Me and Petey. It was ... it is more than just a blowjob. That makes me sound like an asshole."
"Oh! Oh right. No. No Jess. It was, it was, well, you know. Like before. It was cool. I ... I love Jim."
Jim was almost behind him. He was a good six inches taller than Petey. He enfolded his little buddy in his thick arms and hugged him. Petey giggled. How had I not seen this before?
"Do ... do Kev and Steve know about this?" I asked.
They both nodded.
"We don't really talk about it." Said Petey. "But they know. Sure."
"Okay. So when you blurted this out to me, I'm like, the last to know?"
"Nobody else knows." Said Jim.
"Sure. Okay, but among us, I had no clue. I thought I was so smart."
They shrugged. I was about to go back in, but I turned.
"Were you, like, ashamed or scared to tell me?"
Jim cocked his head. "It's more, well, actually, I would have ..."
"We don't really talk about sex." Said Petey. "Till now."
There was more, I could see. Maybe Petey never really revealed his feminine side to Jim. I didn't really understand. But it didn't matter.
I gave them both a hug each and pressed myself against them.
"You? You still enjoyed it with me, right? You weren't just doing it for my sake?"
"Oh yeah." Said Jim. Petey nodded. I smiled and left them there, talking, but there was something in my mind about them.
We played charades. Really, this was an excuse for me to look cute in front of the guys. Standing up, my sweatshirt hid almost nothing and my ass, legs and the nylon-covered vee between my legs were fully on show.
The guys stared. I flirted. I felt gooey and happy inside.
As predicted, Petey and I could make each other guess a title with just a few gestures. Jim, Steve and Kevin stumbled over their clues like dunces. I'd hoped me and Petey would get some racier titles to act out but it was all war movies and Charles Dickens which didn't give much opportunity for suggestiveness.
I kept gazing at Petey, noting just how swishy he really was. He was slim, pretty and had better skin than me. His body was almost hairless. He was half way to a girl already. In my mind, I dressed him in cotton dresses and satin slips and pink crop tops.
Jim fascinated me too. I kept imagining him gently running his fingers through Petey's hair as he guided his head onto his cock. I imagined Petey writhing with Jim's cock in his ass. I kept having to be reminded it was my turn.
Between goes I sat as close as I could to the boys, each in turn, encouraging them to touch my legs and feel me up. The heat rose steadily.
At 15-4 we called it. It was getting embarrassing.
They all looked at me again. I laughed. "Oh this is good." I said. "Before, it was like I was dragging you. But now, you're all like runners waiting for the pistol. Have I teased you enough with my legs?"
"So fucking sexy." Said Kevin. "But to be honest, at any time, I'd have been admiring you."
"I think it's that we know now that you're definitely sure about this. Before, you said so, but maybe you might change your mind." Said Jim
"Trust is everything." I replied.
"And communication." Said Steve. "When you kept talking before, it felt, kind of uncomfortable. But, honestly, I'm so glad you did. Please, Jess, I know you're being flirty and seductive, but do say, what you want."
I stretched out my legs. "At some point you guys are going to start groaning when I start a sentence with 'I want' but for now, I'm going to make the most of it.
"What I want is for us all to sleep together. I picked this cabin because the whole of the ground floor here is open plan. If we move the low table and the shelves to the wall, we can put all three fold-out beds together. and that's more than enough room for five."
"The fold-outs can all bolt together." Said Jim. "I checked before. they can be turned into one giant bed."
"And your room?" Asked Petey
"I sleep with you guys." I said. "In the middle. Don't look weird. two of you were going to have to sleep together, two to a fold out anyway."
Kevin coughed. "Actually the plan was to draw lots for the fold outs and whoever loses sleeps in a chair."
"Seriously? That's insane." I said.
Steve looked at the ceiling. "Some of us would rather sleep in a chair or make someone else sleep in a chair than just admit the bleeding obvious."
"Can we go upstairs?" Asked Petey suddenly.
"Eh, sure." I said. "Of course."
I glanced around.
"Do you want me to come?" Asked Jim.
"It's okay." Said Petey and he took my hand and dragged me off. The others watched us go.
Upstairs, Petey took my hands. "I want to do it. Now. But I ... I'm not sure. Would it be okay?"
"You need to spell out what you mean Petey. I feel like I'm a step behind."
"Be a girl. Dress like a girl. Like you said. Kinda. I know. Not really. But I want ... When I saw you. You're so ... yourself. I don't want to pretend any more. Jim. .... Jim ...."
"What about him?"
"He said it was okay. He would like to. But he's unsure how you'd feel."
"You want to have sex with Jim, now? Together."
"Yes, with you. Like you."
His face was all worked with emotion.
"I get it. I think. You and Jim and me and Steve and Kev."
"And me and Jim, and maybe, I dunno. Me and Steve or Kev, if they want."
"Fuck. Petey. Really?"
"Yeah. Yeah. I ... I mean, they know. And Jim, I think. When you were, you know, blowing us. He wanted .. but it was too much and you were, like, in charge. It was your thing. But .... you know, he loves me. And I love him, and I love all you guys too."
I just nodded. "You're asking my permission?"
"Yes. Yes."
"Of course. That's so, lovely. If it's what you want."
He laughed. "You see? It's not so easy. You sound like Jim, before."
"Of course. Okay. And Steve meant, before, that you and Jim should just get over yourselves and admit you wanted to sleep together."
"Yes. That was me. It was kind of unstated, but yeah, I wasn't ready to do that then."
"Okay. Of course. You don't really have to ask me, but if it means anything, yes, with all my blessing Petey."
He was nodding. "And the other thing."
"You want to dress up too?"
"Yes. Please." He said. "Can I? Just ... something."
"We can do better than something. They'll just have to amuse themselves for a while. You look through my drawers, pick whatever you like and I'll be back. I'll help. Just a minute."
I popped my head around the banisters.
"We're going to be ten, fifteen minutes getting ready." I said. "And those beds aren't going to make themselves you know."
"Oh, right."Said Steve, putting down his beer.
Jim was at the foot of the stair, as if he'd been about to come up.
"Everything okay?"
"Perfect." I said. "We girls just need a minute in the boudoir."
He smiled in an odd way and I hurried back up.
Petey had selected a pair of flesh-coloured holdups, ivory panties and a little lycra cami.
"Your heart's desire?" I asked. He bit his lip and nodded.
"Okay. I'll do your hair and makeup." I said. "I'd imagined us taking our time over this and savouring it the first time, but I want to get back down there before they go off the boil."
"Sorry." Said Petey.
"Oh don't say sorry. I love that you asked me."
I pinned back his hair and worked on some makeup and did his eyes and some lipstick. His skin was so perfect there was no need for anything else. I worked some mousse into his hair and styled it in a more feminine look with the blowdryer. I clipped on some earrings, gave him a choker and topped it with a little hair clip.
"Too girly?" I asked.
"I hope he likes it." Said Petey.
I gave him a big hug. "I love you Petey. I love that you and Jim are together."
I pulled away. "Are we okay? Actually? I mean, if you don't want me and Jim to ..."
He laughed. "Oh don't be silly. I mean, now? How can you even think that?"
"Okay. Okay." I said. "Now. Should I change?" I think so. I need a slip too.
I had a short satin slip. I pulled off my sweatshirt and my bra and slid into it.
"Are we ready to get fucked?" I whispered.
Petey nodded and we hurried down, hand in hand.
They'd turned down the lights and made the beds very nicely. It looked slightly ludicrous, the widest bed in the world. Best of all though, they'd stripped off down to their own trunks or boxers. The fire was banked up and there was an orange glow from their legs and torsos that made them look even sexier, a little primal. Of course, they turned to watch us come down the stairs and their eyes went wide when they saw Petey.
Jim grinned and took his hand, pulling him to himself and kissing him straight away.
I went to Steve and Kevin and moved between them, pulling them to me.
We kissed and fondled and groped at each other until the fire inside was well and truly brought back to life.
......
I broke away, my breath short and my face flushed. Jim ad Petey were whispering, then Jim said.
"Petey says he'll suck anyone's cock, but he won't be offended if you decline."
"What do you say Jim?" Asked Steve.
"I say, that me and Petey have something a little friendly cock-sucking won't harm."
"How about some pussy stuffing?" I asked.
"I think we already know the answer to that question." He said. "And I think you just wanted to say 'Pussy-stuffing' out loud."
"Guilty. And it's Petey and I, by the way."
I took Petey's hand. "This time. I want to lie on the bed. My knees aren't right since the last time. Petey's going to lie beside me and anyone who wants their cock sucked only need present it to our mouths.
I felt Petey shudder. We clambered onto the bed and I draped my arm over his back, stretched out beside him, our elbows on the edge of the bed.
There was a little confusion about who was first and with who, so I took the opportunity to kiss him. His lipstick made it feel even more sexy. I let my lips slide wetly over his and lpped t him with my tongue. Drool coated our chins and I heard him moan deep inside. I sensed rather than felt a cock near my face. There were two Jim and Steve's. I was pleased i could tell who was who just from their cocks. I felt Kevin sit on the bed behind me. He han his hand over my neck and I felt him gather my hair.
"Is that okay?" He asked.
"Perfect." I purred. "I'd get a hair grip but I love feeling your hand on my head.
I opened my mouth and greedily slurped Steve's cock in deep. I reached for him and pulled his legs in closer. I let my drool coat all over his cock and then licked up and down before begining to bob my head as deep and far as I could. I lifted a leg and put it over Petey's feeling the nylon rasp on his stocking. I stroked his back, feeling his body move in time with mine. I gazed up at Steve and winked at him. Soon, he was tensing. I pushed Kevin off the bed and Steve pulled away. But it was Jim's cock that moved to my face.
I turned to see Petey, his eyes zoned out, Kevin's cock approahing him.
I locked eyes with Petey and slowly swallowed his boyfriend's cock down as far as I could.
He smiled, his eyes hooded.
I could feel the heat from the fireplace on one side, the soft slurping from Petey's and my mouths. It was so langorous, so unhurried.
I put my elbow down so I could reach with my other hand to Jim. I guided his hand behind my head, pressed on it as I slurped down on his shaft, then released the pressure as I bobbed up again. Then down, a little harder and faster, pressing his hand with mine. Then I gazed up at him and scarbbled my fingers over his, digging in with my nails. I craned my neck back, looking up high, licking his cock with my tongue and grinned, open mouthed at him, daring him to do as I'd mimed.
He nodded and I felt him grip my hair, then deliciously, I let my own neck go slack and let him guide my head down onto his cock. I burned inside. The straps of my top ug into the flesh of my shoulders. My legs slid over the bedcovers, looking for cooler spots. beside me, I could feel Petey shift and bob as he sucked first on Kevin, then on Steve. A spark popped in the fire. I felt so alive, so warm, so cosy. All I wanted was more of this.
Petey caught my eye. He looked totally zonked out. His eyes were not just clouded, but unfocussed. his mouth was sliding over Kevin's cock but he was too blissed to do anything with his hands. I rolled over and patted him gently.
"Come on baby. Lie back with me." I said.
"Petey?" Said Jim, a little concerned. "You okay?"
"Let's just give him a minute to collect himself okay?" I said.
I wriggeled us both up on the bed and lay back on the pillows.
"Nice job on the bed, by the way, fellahs." I said. "And the fire. It's all lovely."
Jim lay down beside Petey, and cradled his head in one arm.
Petey reached up to him and kissed him. He was trembling.
I reached my arms out to Steve and Kevin.
"Come on Steve." I said. "You didn't get a go on me last time. Kevin, would you cradle my head and shoulders like Jim is doing?"
As they joined me on the bed I pulled another pillow over and lay on it to raise up my torso. Kevin lifted me and put his arm behind me, and I put an arm around him. I kissed him on the neck and chest until I felt Steve's hands on my legs. I lifted them and opened wide for him.
He fumbled at the entrance, prodding painfully too high, then too low.
"Slide the tip up and down." I said. "It'll open for you."
Ever fastidious, he must have dried Petey's slaiva off before lambering onto the bed. But my pussy was full of juice. As his cock head slid over my lips it seeped out and I felt it slide in, press against the inner lips, then wonderfully press in deeper.
"Out and in. Gently and then firmly." I said. "Till you're buried in me."
I rocked my hips to help him, giggling at Kevin's face.
Feeling his thighs press against mine was wonderful.
"So deep." I gasped. "Just go for it honey. "Fuck me as hard as you like."
I hung on to Kevin and kissed him, grabbing him around the shoulders and gasping as Steve plowed me.
We'd given Petey and Jim some space but now I felt them edging over to lie beside me.
Petey gave me a grin. He was lying back too, his legs in the air. Jim was fixing the top of his hold up stocking, Petey's leg over his shoulder.
"You're back, pretty girl." I grunted. he tried to roll to kiss me but it was too awkward.
I was getting woozy myself. Steve, had shed his earlier over-sensitivity. He was giving it to me good. I heard him smack off my ass and thighs. Wonderful sensations poured out of me. He had wrapped an arm around my legs, and was thrumming over my clit with his fingers, maybe his thum. It felt just unspeakably good. Jim was pistoning into Petey. When had that started?
"Jess? Are you okay?" Asked Kevin.
"Okay? I'm fucking incredible." I moaned. "Oh fuck. I'm coming and I don't even know it."
It had built slowly but almost torturous sensations were flooding my body and my brain.
I heard Steve ask "Is she okay? Should I stop?"
"Nooo. Keep fucking me with that wonderful cock." I moaned, gripping so hard on Kevin he almost fell over. My back arched and I lost control of my legs and I think I may have bitten my lip.
Steve slowed and stopped and I fought to stop my legs from wobbling.
I rolled over and looked down on Petey. He looked amazing. He was biting his knuckle. I grabbed his wrists and loomed over him, kissing him, feeling Jim's bulk press against me as he kept fucking him.
I looked back over my shoulder, wiggled my ass at Kevin.
"Your turn honey." I said.
He had to manoeuvre my ass, but Steve helped and I concentrated on Petey while they worked on getting Kevin's cock into me.
"Feel good baby?" I asked him.
"Shit. Jess? So, so good." He moaned.
I looked over my shoulder to Jim.
"You gonna give your baby girl some of that in a minute?" I asked.
He just gazed at me. We were all kind of worked up.
I turned back to Petey. "I bet you wonder what you ever afraid of?"
"You did this ... for me." He groaned.
I didn't but I knew what he meant.
I felt Kevin finally, in position. He lifted one knee onto the pillow to raise me up a bit for him and then his cockhead was at my slit and then in.
I gasped, gripped Petey's wrists tighter.
"The cock. Going in. Best part." I said.
I let go his wrists, sank to my elbows over him, locked my mouth on his and kissed him until the hard fucking I was getting made it impossible. I reared up, pushing my elbows behind me. Kevins's hands were around my hips. "Grab me. Hold me. Please" I moaned.
He gripped me by the elbows so I rocked back onto him, shaking.
Jim and Petey were still fucking. I glanced around for Steve.
"Don't you have a cock I could suck?" I asked, struggling to keep my bearings as my insides began to liquify again and my brain overloaded with the experience. It felt so good. I loved being fucked like this. I could hear the fire again, and moaning, and the straps on my top, barely holding my tits, as they wobbled in the soft fbric. When I felt Jim's hands running through my hair I realised I wasn't totally there. I had Steve's cock in my mouth. I wasn't sure how I was resting on the bed. They were holding me up. Petey was beneath me. His mouth was on my nipples.
"Cuming. So hard." I groaned and my head cleared for a second and I could feel them all around me. My boys, enjoying me. I was still cumming when Jim flipped me onto my back and lay me down.
"Jim. Jim. I want you to come in me." I said.
"More Jess?" He asked. Was he concerned? I was in heaven.
My arm couldn't move. Petey was beside me, my arm beneath him, he was cradling my head.
"Yes more. You. I don't need to cum again. I just want you in me."
He bent back my legs and I felt the slick goop around my snatch as he pressed into me.
"Sorry. Am I a mess?" I asked. Kevin was on the other side. Steve was behind Petey. I could see him slowly storking Petey's cock.
"Hello." I thought. "We've all gone a bit gay." But I was saying it out loud.
As Jim's cock slid into my oozing hole, I lay back, trying to keep myself together.
"You've no idea how good you make me feel." I said. "The attention. Knowing you want me. It's all so good."
Kevin's hand strayed down to my pubic mound, rubbing gently. Petey lapped at my tits. I was building again.
"Being your girl is so good." I moaned. "It's everything. It's perfect."
I realised Steve had his cock in Petey's ass. He was slowly fucking him while he was reaching around to jerk him off.
Jim loomed over me. He slid in and out. I tried to rock beneath him to get more purchase but he was too heavy and he wouln't speed up no matter how I whined and made eyes at him.
"Slow down Jess. Take it easy." He said.
So I lay back and let him rock into me, letting it build again slowly. Looking around me I smiled fondly at the others then back to Jim.
"I love you." I mouthed to him. He just smiled, like he was in control, but I had more tricks. I cupped my tits in my hands. Petey was unable to concentrate by now. I opened my mouth a little, let my tongue lol out, then I slowly gripped him tighter with my pussy. Tighter and tighter. I saw his eyes roll up.
"Come on Jim. Ram me." I coaxed him. "Fuck your little Jess. Fuck me hard." I tempted. He slid in harder, a little faster. Now I could rock beneath him.
"Yeah baby. That's it. Stuff that little pussy." And he pressed on me, knocking out my breath and then he was thrusting hard and I began to feel it sweep over me again and Kevins' hands were on my breasts, kneading them and Petey was cumming, his seed sprting over my hip and my belly and I was consumed by it again but I could just keep my eyes locked on Jims as he thrust a final load into me.
He moved down and hugged me, his chest heaving. I clung on to him, as hard as I could, my pussy still spasming around him.
"Fuck Jess. I'm done." He said. "I hope you are too. I have nothing left."
"Okay. Okay" I said, patting his back, my head spinning.
"You can take the rest of the night off."
Kevin chuckled a little. Steve and petey looked kind of gooned out. We lay there for a minute, just breathing.
"Everyone happy?" I asked. "Are we all sufficiently fucked."
"Beyond sufficient." Said Jim, his voice muffled with pillow.
I extracted myself from Jim and went to the kitchen. I was pleased to see they'd cleaned up well.
"My boys." I murmured. Petey was behind me.
"Okay?" He said. He was a mess. His makeup ruined. His hair all over the place. He'd kept the holdups I noticed.
"Glowing." I said. "You?"
"So happy. Thank you."
I gave him a little kiss. I grabbed a cloth and rung it out, handed it to him. "Wipe yourself down." I said. He wiped where he could see and then I took it back and turned him so I could clean the cum from his ass and his thighs.
He rinsed it and then did me, starting with the mess on my hip.
"This is the not-fun part of being a girl." I said.
He gave me a look. "Even wiping off the jizz is lovely with you." He said.
I hugged him, then got. fresh cloth. "Go make them clean up." I said, "We need to go upstairs."
I fixed his face, cleaning off the makeup and made his hair neat again. He wanted to keep the holdups but I insisted he take them off. "You'd sweat. Trust me." I said.
I gave him a cotton nightie , which he grtefully accepted and I pulled on a pair of satin pyjama bottoms.
Downstairs, they'd fixed the bed and fetched glasses of water. I took one from Jim and drank deeply.
"No top?" He asked.
I shook my head and took his hand, clambered onto the bed, right to the middle.
"Middle is my spot." I announced. "And I don't mind being touched. Feel free to have a feel in the night."
I snuggled down beside Jim and let him spoon me.
The others got in too and Steve turned the dimmer down. Petey was the other side of Jim and Kevin the other side of me. Steve got in last but before he lay down he stretched over the others and gave me and Petey a kiss each.
"Good night girls." He said. In the dark, I felt Petey squirm in happiness. I put my arms around Kevin and pulled him tight to me. Jim spooned me on the other side so I was snugly sandwiched between them.
In my own bed, I often slept with no top. Now, of course, it felt different. If it was sunny the next day, I might go topless I thought. Definitley braless. I pulled Jims hands up till they were over my breasts. His hands were big and warm. Comfy. I snuggled back into him and felt him stiffen a little. I gripped his arms with mine and felt hm stiffen more. It felt good to be able to make him want me again so soon but I didnt want to tease him too much.
I thought about Petey. I knew some boys wanted to be girls. Often, people had assumed I wanted to be a boy. Carrie Agnew had kissed me once. She'd presumed, because I was so geeky and butch that I was a lesbian. It had been nice, but when she found her mistake she'd kinda freaked out. But it was different for Petey anyway. A butch girl, who wanted to be masciline didnt feel the same about boy's clothes as Petey'd felt about wearing my lingere. It was a sex thing. He wanted to be wanted. It was good to feel wanted. By people you liked. Loved.
I felt differently about all of them now. Steve and Kevin and Petey, but most of all Jim. It was a problem. I'd wanted to keep it all even. Nobody left out. Eveyone together. I'd wanted to be sure there was no jelousy. But it was me that was the problem. I loved Jim more than the others. I felt things about him, for him, that I didn't feel about Steve or Kevin or Petey. The sex had just made all that clearer. I loved them all more, but with Jim it was more again.
"Fuck." I thought to myself. "You fucked it up."
Jim moved behind me.
"Love you Jess." He murmured into my hair.
"Love you too." I whispered back.
"More." He said. Just one word. It was a problem.
I woke in the dark. I craned my neck up to read the clock. 4:30. My dream was fading but I could still grasp moments, strands. I was home. At home. I'd moved all of them into the house. My Mom wasnt happy. We were arguing. he was saying she didn't mind having them, but the sex all the time was a problem. I was constantly fucking. It was attracting comment from the neighbours. And I needed to put on clothes. I was naked. There was more. But I couldn't bring it back.
Jim was awake too. "Did I wake you." He whispered.
"Maybe."
I craned around. Nobody else was awake. Petey had rolled over. Kevin was sprawled out. Steve was yards away.
I turned to face him, realising as I did so that he had a full on erection. That was what he'd meant.
I felt for it. Stroked him.
"No." He whispered. "Can't do it quietly."
"Okay." I said. But I kept stroking.
"I have a problem Jim." I said.
"I know." He insisted.
"I love you more than the others." I said. "Different."
He put his hand on my wrist.
"It's okay." He said. "I know. Or I think I did. Petey knew."
Ah. That made sense.
"I need to know." I said.
He knew what I meant.
"Yes. Yes. Of course. Always." He said. "When you gave that speech. All together. I thought, 'Fuck. You missed your chance.' To be with you. I wanted to ask before. I thought I would here, this week. You beat me to it."
"I didn't really know 'till today." I said. "And now I've ruined it."
"How?"
"I can't be with everyone if I am with you."
"Why not?"
"Because. Because then I'm not with you."
"You are now."
"Huh? That ..."
"Look." He said. "You love me. I love you. It's special. Is there more?"
"Eh, well..."
"No. The answer is no. That's all that matters. Well figure it out at home. In the meantime, be with us all. I know you love it."
I smiled. I had mentioned it. I kissed him and tutned again, wriggling till his boner rested in the groove of my ass. Where it belonged.
I didn't know how we would make it work, but Jim was right. We loved each other and everything would be okay.
I felt Kevin getting up. I hadn't dreamed after I'd fallen asleep the second time. I caught his boxers as he stealthily rose.
"Sorry." He whispered.
"It's okay. What time is it?"
"Seven. I'm going to make breakfast."
I wriggled up too.
He waved me back but I shook my head and continued to follow him. In the doorway to the kitchen I looked back. The other three were still asleep. I noticed Jim and Petey were spooning now.
I closed the door to the kitchen.
"Aren't you cold?" Asked Kevin.
"A bit." I said. "But it's okay."
"I'll get you a tee shirt." He said, but I stopped him. "The house will warm up in a minute." I said. "I want to go topless. Do you mind?"
He shook his head, smiling.
I looked down at my chest. "They're so nice, aren't they? I love boobs. Other women's. My own. I want to show them off as much as I can today."
He rolled his eyes and I giggled. "Come on. Let's do this." I said. "I want to be all Mom and Pop for our boys."
"And girl." Said Kevin.
"Yeah, about that ...." I said.
As we made toast and coffee and eggs, I quizzed Kevin about Petey and Jim. Yeah, he and Steve knew about Petey. Petey'd struggled with his attraction to guys until he and Jim hooked up, or whatever they did. I remembered this time as Petey acting up all the time. I'd just put this down to general teen boy behaviour, but really he'd been conflicted all the time about boys and girls.
"Don't beat yourself up." Said Kevin. He adores you. He wouldn't have told you under torture. It's really only this last year, since he admitted it to Jim that he's got over it.
"And you guys have no problem with it, clearly?"
"Last night was a first. In several ways, but yeah. It's Petey right? But fuck, he looked amazing. Not just like the lingerie and makeup and stuff. Did you see his eyes?"
"I thought he was going to explode when I gave him the stockings." I said. "He's like all-in now."
"For here." Said Kevin. "Like you."
"Uh huh." I said.
We were done. It was 7:30. I went to the bathroom and peeked in. Our three beauies slept on.
Back in the kitchen, Kevin was pouring coffee.
"Please." I said when he offered me a mug.
Kevin was just a fraction older than Jim. he organised the cabin each year. He was the most organised and adult of us all. Tallest. Lean and wiry. His glasses made him look older and he gave off a kind of Dad vibe. A cool, scholarly kind of Dad vibe."Mom and Pop." He said.
I smiled. "Does Pop want some of Mom's sugar?"
He glanced at the door. "Just us?"
"Just a little." I said.
I came over and straddled him on his chair, still with my coffee mug. He'd drunk his already.
I pushed my boobs into his face and he sucked on one nipple. I could feel th het of the coffee on his mouth.
"Oh God." He sighed.
I stroked his hair with one hand and sipped my coffee.
"Work away, hubby. Use your hands." I told him.
He hesitated.
I bit my lip.
"We ... we shouldn't do this." He said.
"It's just ..." I started to say. But then I felt a pang. "You're right." I said. "I said I wouldn't do this. Shit. I am such a whore."
"No. No. Please don't say that." He said. "It's just ... You and Jim..."
"What? What about Jim?"
"Well. Like, how would you feel if he walked in now?"
I cringed. "Guilty. But I'd feel the same if any of them walked in."
He was too smart for that. How did he know?
"Really Jess? Is that really how you'd feel?"
I closed my eyes. "No. Sorry."
I sat up. Now my exposed tits felt shameful.
"Fuck. How do you know?" I asked.
He shrugged. I just do. I mean, from before. We see how you look at him. How you are with him. It's kind of obvious Jess. And then, last night. I mean, you're so generous. But you do it differently with him."
"I am a fucking idiot." I said. "I thought I was going to introduce you four bozos to the joys of sex and love. So fucking generous. But, turns out, I know way less about love than you four. Christ! When did I get to be so dumb and conceited?"
I felt wretched now. Petey? Jim? Steve and Kevin being totally okay with being gay. They all knew I was in love with Jim? From before? Before I did?
"Woah, woah." Said Kevin. "No no no. You're not."
"I fucking am!" I hissed, trying to keep my voice down. "I thought I was so cool but I know nothing. What am I fucking doing? I gave a big speech about being all together and no jealousy and look at me now, not even a day later. I knew nothing about Petey and Jim. Nothing! People I've known my whole lives. And I get it Kevin. You could just tell that I'm in love with Jim. I didn't know. And him and Petey? How does that even work. I'm fucking clueless. I'm as dumb as all those empty headed girls in school that I look down on. They probably know more about sex and love than I ever will."
I whirled around. Jim wasn't behind me, but I must have heard him outside. He was opening the door.
He glanced around.
"Shh. Shhh." He whispered gently. But he didn't mean just to keep my voie down. He meant, calm down.
He enfolded me in his arms. Emotional and ashamed I fought him. I didn't want comfort. I wanted to expunge my guilt and shame.
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