Perfect Porn : Those scenes

Another in my occasional series about Porn I Like (tm).

Just now, I saw a comment on a porn scene I was thinking of watching. "Honestly this scene is kinda depressing, she looks miserable and not having fun. Which may work for some but I find a lot of the best porn scenes -at least for me- are where they get into it."

I'll say a bit about that at the end of this post, but for now, let's look at a type of scene where the performer IS into it - specifically the first two minutes of a gang/blow bang.

Carter Cruise making friends

Smiles. Delight! Surprise!

I don't especially like gang/blowbangs. I don't seek them out. They often obscure the performers face. That whole DP thing leaves me cold, and so often the producer/director seems to feel that just getting a bunch of guys makes the scene special and exciting enough that they can just run through some positions and finish with bukkake. There are exceptions of course but usually it's not worth it. 

But, maybe half the time, the scene will start with something like this.

Leah Gotti. Smiles all the way through her seminal GB scene.

To be honest, if the whole scene was just forty minutes of this, I'd prefer it. Just to be clear, the girl being into it, is absolutely key here. Some GB/BB are dark and nasty and there's room for that as an acted-out  fantasy but when the performer is really excited it's special. 

What I like here is that 'Oooh lovely, lotsa guys!" look. Being touched, being fondled, being pawed at, the anticipation of what is to come. Looking around, smiling, inviting, losing track of the hands caressing and grabbing. Clothes being pulled aside, boobs exposed. Tottering slightly on high heels as the hands pull this way and that. Smiles. Delight! Surprise!

Carolina Sweets. Consumate performer, sells this scene big time.

"Touching with hands is the neglected stepchild of porn "

Porn is a fantasy and this one, being the centre of the lustful intentions of a group of men is a particularly primal, powerful one.  It's animalistic. It's decadent. It's peak slutty. And this part, the build-up and anticipation is the best part. More than the best, the multiple guys at the same time shots that feature so much in gangbangs are usually pretty lame. In contrast, the performer, smiling and delighted at all the attention and lust is great to watch. Touching with hands is the neglected stepchild of porn but it's the one of best parts of actual sex. Touching and being touched is the whole thing really. 

Of course, these scenes end all too quickly. The clothes are removed and she's pushed to her knees, often less than a minute since the start. Ideally, this caressing and feeling would continue for a lot longer. Maybe she could sit or lie down and face the camera while hands roam over her body.  Different positions - sitting, lying standing. And of course, why stop there - when the BJ or sex begins, hands could still be roaming, feeling, caressing. That never happens. JulesJordan's blowbang scenes sometimes do a bit of that but it's always at the same time as the performer is having a vibrator used on her very aggressively and she's totally consumed with that. What I'm looking for is her reaction to being felt up, and her sharing that with the viewer. 

Some studios of course, do some kind of story setup. The sports reporter in the changing room, the wedding scene, the frat party. But once the action starts, in all but exceptional films,  all that is dumped on the floor along with her clothes.

Kali Roses. Theres some setup here, but in five more seconds, this is over.

How about a fistfight?

What I'd love to see is a more competitive scene. The base nature of the gangbang is that it is a competition between males to cover a female. Could a scene lean into that more? Would it be exciting to see, one of the men, grab the star all to himself and hold off his rivals while he fucks her, followed by the next in the pecking order? How about a fistfight breaking out before or during the action? Some of the best scenes almost get there where the female performer is pulled between two men. Often though, those are the most degrading scenes towards the star and they don't have to be. They could fight over her without demeaning her. How cool would that be?

So in my ideal scene, we have a fabulously dressed star. She's a modern-day princess, let's say, Mafia-boss daughter, or a movie star. She wants to get pregnant and she's invited the best of her elite bodyguard to her chambers. She demands attention. Hesitantly at first, they touch her, caress her as she commands, and she loves it. It gets more heated. She  sits and poses. She offers herself to the one who can win a wrestling contest. While they pair off (we'd montage this) the others who are waiting to have their turn wrestling, stay, on her command, caressing and touching her while she relaxes on a divan. We see her get more and more excited as the competitors wrestle, watching their oiled bodies strain and compete for her. Again, we're montaging this. Men getting hit, competing. Hands caressing her soft body. Her smiles, eyes sparkling. A punch connects. Blood and sweat spray. Her chest heaving. 

Carter getting into it. If only this went on for longer.

A winner is declared, but before he can claim his prize a real fight breaks out. Fists fly. No holds barred. The winner is deposed and the princess spreads her legs for the new victoe. He's bloodied and bruised. Though she lets him penetrate her, she demands more touching from her  other suitors and says the next one to claim her pussy will need to win her like her current lover. More fighting, only now it's going on even as she's being fucked. Through all this she looks turned on and sultry and powerful. Montage all the way to multiple creampies from increasingly battered lovers. She is triumphant at the end, swirling her finger in her oozing pussy, while her exhausted, battered lovers worship at her feet. Close on her smiling face.

Now THAT would be a gangbang. 

Miserable and not having fun.

Unsurprisingly porn is having a MeToo eruption. It's always been there. That worrying pain at the back of your mind. Is she really happy doing this? Has she been coerced? Is she okay with _that_, even if she was happy with the scene at the start?

Even if you don't think porn is always degrading and immoral in itself, everyone is aware that there are huge problems. More than enough pornstars and former pornstars have spoken out. You would imagine that major studios are reputable enough to ensure that the stars, that are the absolute most important people in their industry, are well cared for and protected. But no. Even if you keep away from the seedier end of the spectrum (and how does that help, really?) you become complicit in ever more disturbing, non consensual and exploitative abuse. 

Sometimes that worry then turns out to have been an 'I told you so' and you find that you've been enjoying and masturbating over a scene where the female performer had not agreed to what was happening to her. Making you just as bad as the abuser. Going back and deleting scenes from your hard drive isn't any response at all. Not buying further from studios or producers who abused seems pretty pathetic. 

The obvious answer from many people would be 'stop consuming porn you sick fuck'. But that's not going to happen, and given that many performers do enjoy their work and give a lot of pleasure by it, it seems that we ought to be able to make porn a safe and well-paid job for those who want to do it. 

If you want to consume ethically produced porn where nobody was exploited, best practices were followed and the performer was paid and retains control of how it's sold, is there a way? I think there has to be. I know there are a small number of female-run sex-positive studios but they're tiny. Surely best practices should be the industry standard. Porn is like nuclear power. Great, but prone to terrible abuse and appalling consequences for individuals. Given the totally obvious dangers of exploitation surely the whole industry should be more tightly regulated than any other. Just ensuring your performers are STD free and over 18 seems like a laughably low standard. 

One solution that seems possible is to put all production power in the hands of the performers. OnlyFans and similar sites seem to offer that, but it's going a very weird way. It seems terribly overpriced for what most performers put out and when I look at some of that content, Miserable and Not Having Fun seems like a better description than happy and empowered. 

What I'd love to see is some kind of performers union which has the power to inspect and shut down studios if they break a strict code of conduct. A kind of independent performer run licensing authority. Sure, not all producers would be bound by it, but if it was widespread in Europe and the US then at least consumers could choose an ethical producer. Maybe that's pathetic, but when I see performers say that they were coerced or disrespected, or even cheated out of proper payment, I feel like the bar is so low on studios that it barely exists. 

PMV : Gracie Glam

So, Gracie ......

Gracie Glam'Smack my bitch up' Porn Music Video

Link to SpankBang

She's one of those girls, maybe in my top 10, maybe top 20. I think the first video I saw of her was one in the Naughty Rich Girls series with Allie Haze where she and Allie get fucked by two guys in a dinner. Also I recall her from a lesbian scene with Brooke Lee Adams which is notable for Brooke getting very emotional at the end and crying. Not unhappy crying, more 'God you're so lovely' crying. Gracie comforts her. It's very sweet. She's totally gorgeous so over time I built up a 'Gracie' folder. No need for a surname - not many Gracies in porn.

So, as usual, I'm working on one porn music video and I get tired and frustrated with it, so I start  another. I'd been working on a (still unfinished) Maddy O'Reilly video which featured a lot more rough sex than I usually do, and while looking for 'hair.pulling' for her I kept coming across quite rough scenes with Gracie.
So, where did it start? Well, I like doggystyle and I had a lot of videos of her being done from behind, plus in a recent video I panned a zoomed in doggystyle scene just as the music changed, which I loked a lot. I piked some of those scens of Gracie and did the same. At that stage I was using a track I liked callled 'Elite' by Warkids, but as I selected more scenes, I found more and more rough sex with Gracie, especially the JulesJordan scenes she'd done.
So, I changed the track to 'Smack My Bitch Up' by the Prodigy and I was away to the races.

'Juddering' effect with multiple freeeze-frames
of speeded-up source file.

It has a very strong beat and a lot of changes, so it's ideal for a PMV. The only downside is that it's also quite loud, especially in the vocal. I like to drop in the performer speaking and I'd found her saying all kinds of stuff in the interview sections of the 'Lust' feature she'd done with Jules Jordan, but to play those I had to suppress the music and layer a lot of the words. I hate doeng this as it's so hard to get the sound levels even again and the volume will not be constant.
I'd also begun to use the 'juddering' technique of repeated freeze-framing a speeded-up scene. This allows you to move rapidly through a position change that might take five seconds but the viewer still gets a sense of what's happening in one and half-second clip  without it being stupidly fast. Coupled with the video 'echo' effect in Premiere it looks good, I think.

Juddering effect with Premier 'Echo'
video effect applied.

I put in some AfterEffects masks in this one. I find After Effects a frustrating challenge. The think I really want to be able to do is to easily create a mask to isolate a performer and add an effect around them. At one time I would be easily able to do this with the rotoscope tool, export it as a quicktime .mov file and then re-import it to premiere. No more. Due to some Apple-Adobe legal bullshit, they dropped support for exporting a video-and-alpha channel from After Effects and then dropped dupport for quicktime .mov from Premiere so I can't do this any more. The only way is now to embed After Effects compositions into the Premiere file. That's great but my PC just can't handle running both at the same time and it runs like a total dog. Sigh.

Getting smacked. In fairness, she wants this.

This video is rougher than anything I've done before. I chose a lot of rough scenes, especially of her getting slapped and pulled around the place. I spent quite a bit of time trying to both time the scenes of her getting slapped to the 'Smack my bitch..' vocal and also fitting her words around it too. Re-viewing it a few weeks after finishing and posting it, I think the parts with her speaking is the best feature of the whole thing. One of the problems I have is that when I'mdoing these videos I fall in love with some particular scene and want to use and re-use it, but really I should be trying for more variety. There's lots of good stuff that I had selected which I just never user and I could have had this instead of re-using some of the same scenes over and over.

The vocal parts of hers that I picked out are mainly from one of the intro interviews she did for the Elegant Angel 'Lust' showcase. In this, she says 'I want to be a fuck doll' which obviously, I really liked and I use it over and over again. Also she says, when talking about how she wants to be roughed around, she says 'I want ... what they want.' The pause is great because then I could use the 'I want ....' over and over in the build-up and then do the whole clip with her saying 'I want ... what they want' close up.

I want to be Face Fucked!

The other good vocal was from the blow job only video she did where she says 'I want to be ... face fucked' Again, this is really clear and the 'face fucked' part is very distinct. So I  could use it over and over again in a build up and then the whole thing as she says it. Just to make that better she also does a hanging-over-the-edge upside down face fucked part in that which is totaally great as she locks eyes on the camera for the whole scene. I used this in a main middle section with all the other blow-job scenes cut in fast in the build up.

My favorite part of the whole thing though is the second scene from the 'Lust' Elegant Angel showcase where Manuel Ferrara releases his inner Keiran Lee and does her doggystle after giving her a facial . I got into why I like that scene so much in another article 'Perfect Porn #3' which I wote, accidentally deleted and havent gone back to write again, but trust me - it was really good.

Gracie Glam's best moment. 

I use bits of that all through but for it to make sense it really needs to be seen in it's entirety so I put it in as an alternative ending, cutting it down to about twenty seconds and closing in on the strings of cum drooling off her lips as he does her anally doggy-style.

I was MASSIVELY DISAPPOINTED with the reception this got when I posted it on Empornium.com Two comments and a few thanks clicks, just a fraction of the downloads that I got for the  Leah Gotti video which I didn't think was anything like as good. I have to think this is beacause the thumbnail I used for Leah was of her in a schoolgirl outfit and that's the kind of thing those perverts at Empornium like. Sheesh. In my view, Gracie is ten times the performer that Leah is, but obviously my tastes are way more sophisticated that those swines on Empornium.

Of course, you guys are way more cultured and will see Gracie and this showcase of her talents for the art that it is, and make approving comments right here. Now. Go on.

PMV : Eva Lovia ASMR Cuck JOI

You know that thing about the order of adjectives? Like you never say "A big angry grey elephant" but you would say "A big angry grey elephant?" There's some sort of order to the way adjectives are listed. You don't know what they are consciously, but you know when it's right.

Well, this is like that. I started to make an ASMR video. Originally, Eva Lovia wasn't even in it. It was Natasha from Natasha's bedroom. For ages, the project file was called Nat ASMR. There were other stars in there and the whole thing was very languorous and set to music with Natasha's voice over. Then I included some Eva Lovia and it kind of changed. Now it was a lot about her demonstrating JOI. Then I wanted to include some more HC scenes of Eva and that made it go a bit in a cuckold direction and then I put in a small clip of Larkin Love saying 'It's so good to be a cuck." and it all made sense. Eva was encouraging you to jerk off, to her, while she cuckolded you on the sly. Who wouldn't like that? And she's so nice about it too.

This took ages. I'd set it to Orbital's Halcyon and the version I used got progressively heavier as it went on. So, i'd put Eva in the middle and worked from there, so by the time I'd finished out to the end of the second half, I realised that the start with Natasha has to go and then I had to fill in all of the start. So it's ended up almost in to halves. It starts, builds, reaches a  kind of catharsis in the middle and then endlessly reprises that to the end.

Sound is more difficult than video, especially if the sound was secondary to the video in the first place. That perfect phrase you've picked out may be muffled or covered by some other sound. For this, I wanted to repeat phrases and match them to the music's changes. I found myself cursing Eva's decision to record in her front room where traffic noise interrupted her most delicious coaxing. Also, Xander, her's an interrupting bollox. Can't he just shut his mouth while Eva's delivering her lines.  And bed noise. You'd think they'd push that headboard up more firmly so we can all appreciate Eva's moaning without having a clunk over the audio every 0.68 seconds.  

Anyway, why write about this PMV so much? I posted it to Empornium and it did well, surprisingly well in the downloads. And then it continued to go up. It's not my most popular PMV there, but considering the niche material, it's way more popular than it ought to be. 

Then I posted it on Reddit and it was popular on the JOI sub until it got deleted for not being more exclusively JOI. So then I posted it on SpankBang (Pornhub just removes my stuff) where it is now my most popular PMV by a wide margin. 

Link to Full Video on SpankBang

I don't really know why. It's not my editing or the sound. I've long ago realised that people like stuff based on a half-second reaction to an image. It's not an in-depth critique. 

To be perfectly honest, it may just be that image above. Eva just looks amazing in it and that expression, slightly amused, slightly mocking, "As IF, I'd lick your cock, loser. It's enough for you to imagine it." 

So, I may try to do another one like this. It's hard to imagine doing one based on anyone else. Maybe Allie Haze. Maybe Adria Rae. Maybe Eva again.

 

Eva Lovia's HA HA's

Have you read "The Mirror and the Light?"

No matter. In it, there's a recurring theme of Anne Boleyn's HA-HAs *. These are carved initials, H and A which are all over Henry's residences, carved in the panelling woodwork and lintels. Now, with Anne executed, Henry has them all removed, as in a Stalinist purge. But some are hard to find, or in out of the way spaces. It's rich symbolism, Anne's murder hangs over the remainder of Henry's reign like an unquiet spirit.

I have removed Eva Lovia's image from my header avatars and wherever else I put her in a general fandom sense. I adored Eva. I made three PMVs of her stuff. My longest story has her image all over. I made Gifs and captioned images. I subscribed to both her websites.

Now, I'm removing her. But she hangs around everywhere. Removing her from 'Eva's new lifestyle' is the hardest. It is covered in hundreds of her images. Its' main character is named after her. And even when  I do, she's going to hang around everywhere like a beautiful ghost - the worst kind.

I deleted a giant 500G folder of her porn from my hard drive. Surprisingly easy to do. But emptying the wastebin took long, painful minutes.

I'm sure plenty of other pornstars I like have illiberal views but somehow her bullshit grated all the harder because I liked her so much. Even then I might have ignored it if she just came out and said what's on her mind, but she does that passive retweeting of Pro-Trump asswipes that spread lies without actually saying them, which feels worse.

So, goodbye Eva. I will never make that sweet potato mash from your cooking twitch stream now.


*  Not to be confused with Anne Boleyn's Hoo Ha, which was a whole other matter.

Update.

Eva's hooks were in deeper than I thought. One HA HA I couldn't delete was a PMV I'd been working on. I thought about deleting it, but the thought of losing all those hours of work was too much. So, of course, I went back to it. I'd deleted the source files in the great Eva purge but there were only a few so I re-downloaded them and I've kept working on it.

Like most PMVs, this one evolved. In fact the file is still called NatashaASMRCuck because it began as a PMV based around one of Natasha of Natasha's Bedroom ASMR files. But I added some Eva JOI clips into that and then some more and eventually it just all became Eva Lovia. You see the problem. She just ... takes over.

The music is Orbital's dreamy 'Halcyon' and there's a lot of repetition. Eva posing, Eva doing that JOI movement, Eva repeating phrases. There's really two halves. In the first, she poses, poses poses, then it slowly adds JOI suggestions and then mixes in the initial scenes from Brazzers' Real Wife Stories video where she has invited some guy around to arrange a threesome with her husband, but after she sees his cock she goes, changes into lingerie and they fuck. I think that scene is the one where she looks best. Her hair in particular is just perfect. Long, soft curls. Her expressions and phrases when she's talking to the guy are just priceless. That morphs into a long section where she's jerking him off and repeating how it's okay and her husband won't mind. 

The second section is more repeated phrases where she's doing more JOI, presumably with the viewer/her husband which then slowly mixes with more scenes from her Vixen movie where she's wearing those Transparenze opaque suspender pantyhose. The JOI contrasts with more scens of her jerking off her partner in that one and as the music reaches the breakbeat section I mix in a clip of Larkin Love saying 'It tastes so good to be a Cuck' and we're into hardcore scenes from the Vixen and Brazzers movie mixed with more JOI and to the finish. No actual cumshot, it just fades out with sounds of her being rhythmically pounded, shots of her fingers gripping the bedsheets and her intoning 'Long, firm strokes' over and over.

So, this is my HA HA. I'm nearly finished it, and then that's it. I swear.

Audio Script : Friends to Lovers. Fetish. FSub.

Friends become lovers. I want to be your slutgirl. L-Bombs.

What I tried to do with this one is really lean in to the L-Bombs.

In my mind, our star girl has always liked our guy, but they're friends. She doesn't think of him as a potential partner because, friends. After a breakup, she explores her kinkier, submissive  side, which he felt she couldn't do with their ex. She has some random encounters over a few months but they don't work out. But hey, maybe her housemate? She'd heard he was into DS stuff, he's single and they're alone together all Summer. She thinks he'll be into it.

She's quite obsessive and thorough, so she writes out her desires and limits, since that's what all the D/S guide books advise. And, as she does so, she begins to realise she has real feelings for our guy. In my mind, she is surprised to find herself writing 'Slutgirl loves Daddy.' at the end. She hadn't known this when she began.

Originally, the reading of her D/S statement took longer and there was no sex. But hey, where's the fun in that? Then, of course it was too long, so I went back and edited it all down, removing anything  I thought was flabby. So it moves along at a breakneck pace. I find pacing hard.
All this is wish-fulfilment, right? I have to admit, though, for me the wish is to be Jessica, not our unnamed guy.
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Extract : near the middle
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I realised. After like the fifth one. Another one night stand. You can't have that kind of relationship in one night. It takes time. Intimacy.

And privacy.

And /we/ have that in spades. The whole Summer. Just the two of us in this house. Alone.

Will I tell you what I want?

I want to wear just some stockings and heels and a little boob tube. No panties. Nothing else. Around the house. Every evening.

I want to put my head in your lap when we watch TV and feel you grow hard. And then slowly suck your cock into my mouth for hours and hours.

I want you to fuck me. Whenever you want. Wherever you want. I want it to be dominant. And hard.

I want to be your slutty little plaything. All Summer.

It needs to be with someone I trust. Someone I have feelings for. Someone who knows what they're doing.

Do I know what /I'm/ doing? Of course. *laughs* How well do you know me?

I've read all the books. The good ones. I've listened to advice. I've thought about it. A lot!

I've written it all out. Here. We can go through it. The limits. The safewords. What we want out of this. What we want to avoid.

Yeah. Look here. I have four pages. I'm always thorough.

Let's start at the top. You want to go through it? Okay.

So I started with a statement. Like a mission statement. A guiding principle.

*reading* I, Jessica Lawlor, want to feel like a slutty little whore. I want to feel safe and protected. That my Daddy understands me. 

*to him* Yeah. I want to call you Daddy.

*reading* That he cares for me. That he enjoys using me for his pleasure and understands my pleasure comes from being used. I want cuddles, and before care, and after care, and during care. I want to feel desired. I want to be his slut.

*reading* I want Daddy to enjoy using me. I want him to feel comfortable with my limits so he can take me there, whenever he wants and feel secure in knowing that I feel safe with him. I want Daddy to know that I will always tell him the moment anything feels wrong. Even if it felt right some time before. I want Daddy to know that /I/ understand that being assertive and dominant is hard work. But in return I give him my body and my soul to be used by him.

*to him* I know there's a lot of 'I wants' in there, but that's kind of the point, right? So you know. You could write your own. It's more difficult than I thought.

*to him*  Okay. Yeah? There's lots more. We're into specifics now.

*reading* I want to be clear that what goes on at home, stays at home. We will neither of us ever break this confidence.

*reading* I want to dress how I like, when I like. If I dress slutty. I'm probably 'on'. If I dress conservatively, I'm probably off. But you need to be sure. Daddy can check easily by just asking how I feel.

*to him* Writing this out. That seemed wrong. But now I'm reading it. It's okay. I can picture it. You can always ask. It won't break the mood. I mean 'do you want this?' When the answer is yes, then that increases the passion, right? And if it's no. Then you were right to ask. Right? Yeah.

*reading* I retain the right to be on or off whenever I want and with no notice or explanation. When I'm on, Daddy can use me all he wants, subject to this agreement. When I'm off. We're back to friends again. Hugs are fine but nothing beyond that. Daddy doesn't get to ask why.

*reading* My safeword is doorbell. If I'm gagged or have Daddy's cock in my mouth then the safeword gesture is the thumbs down sign. If my hands are tied and my mouth is gagged then I can signal with a nose wiggle.

*to him* Yeah. Like this. I know. It /is/ cute. Isn't this fun? I am getting so wet reading this to you,.

*cough* *reading* For this reason. I can never be masked and gagged at the same time. But mask without gag is okay and gag without mask, more than okay. I like being gagged.

*reading* I want to be lubed all the time. I like feeling ready. I will endeavour to be lubed for Daddy's cock or fingers all the time but it's Daddy's responsibility to be sure that I am properly lubricated for him.

*reading* I love to be spanked. But spanking is special. It needs to be with verbal domination, or during sex when I'm already very aroused. Just a random spank in the hallway is not okay, even if I am 'on'. It has to be in the context of sex or a sexual scene.

*to him* Is this okay? Have I gone into too much detail? I'm aware of my tendency to obsess and overwork things.

*to him* No? It's good? I have to tell you, I enjoyed writing all this out and thinking it through. It was hard, but really liberating. I've been anticipating you coming home all day, so I could read it to you. But the reality is even more of a fucking rush though.

*cough* I'll go on, shall I?

*reading* I have a wide variety of harnesses and butt-plugs and sex toys that I bought when I was trying to explore this side of me. Turns out I don't much enjoy ropes. But I do like feeling constrained by straps. I love being gagged. But I also like to talk.

*to him* Yeah, I know, some of this isn't a surprise. *laughs*

*ahem* *reading* I like wearing slutty clothes and outfits but I also like being exposed. I want to explore all of these contradictions and kinks with Daddy. I want to experiment,  and I reserve the right to be illogical, complicated, contradictory and impossibly frustrating. Daddy doesn't get to complain about this. But in compensation he gets to explore all of this with me.

*reading*  I want to drink pints of Daddy's semen. I want all of it. Daddy is not allowed to masturbate or, /does this even need to be said?/ go with any other woman during the length of this agreement.

*reading* I want to sleep with Daddy in his bed.  I want to wake up with his arms around me. Daddy and I need to go to bed at the same time. If I am tired he needs to come to bed with me. If he is tired he can bring me to bed. Daddy is not allowed to get up before me. Even if this means he has to wake me up, like if he has an early shift at work. At all times I am to be his special slut girl.

*to him* *emotional* *there's a tear rolling down her cheek* Sorry. Could you fetch me some water?

*drinking sounds*

*to him* No. I'm fine. Good, really. Could you give me just a little hint of what you're thinking? I like the silent brooding hulk thing but I'm kind of opening myself up here and a hint of feedback ...

* to him* Is that nod telling me you agree to everything?

Okay. Especially waking up beside me? *emotional laugh* Sure. Yes. That's my favourite part too.

Okay. On we go. Over the page. Last one.

*reading* I want to be called names. Slut, whore, cunt, fuck-toy. That kind of thing. Also, possessive. I am /Daddy's/ slutgirl. I want to be reminded of that. Constantly.  I don't want to be called a bitch because that makes me sound mean. Words that emphasise my sexual submissiveness and neediness are positive. Words that make me feel worthless are not. I reserve the right to change my mind on this without notice or reason. See point 5a.

*reading* Daddy is to be assertive and dominant over his slutgirl. When we are 'on' he will put me, his slutgirl, into positions to emphasise his control and mastery of my body. I will not be putting any effort into thinking stuff up. It is Daddy's responsibility to invent, vary and extemporise scenes. He will need to explore just how I want to be dominated and used, and he will use his imagination and strength to try things out. I will give feedback before, after and during on how this is working. Both slutgirl and Daddy understand and accept that I can be a demanding and needy pain-in-the-ass but we agree to go ahead with this anyway. I will do my best to be as flexible and positive as I can and Daddy will do his best to do the same.

*to him* Last bit. Are we still okay?

Because this is the hard bit.

*reading, slowly* Slutgirl loves Daddy. I reserve the right to say this before during and after.

*sniff*

Oh. *Kissing sounds*

*slightly dreamy from here on*

You're right. I didn't put down anything about kissing.

How could I have forgotten?

I /love/ kissing.


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Eva's new lifestyle extract. Sex doll, dressing, so much more.

This is an extract from my longer-than-War-and-Peace femdom/cuckold novel 'Eva's new lifestyle'.

In it, Eva and her cuck hubby-to-be Francis, have started a femdom website to publish her porn and it has a growing fanbase. Eva regularly hosts video webchats on the site, and this is one. (120,000 words fast-forwarded there) This chat is a kind of reverse ask-me-anything where Eva asks her audience a kind of 'Never have I ever' question and then probes one of them on the details. You'll pick it up.

Bear in mind, she's on a webcam but most of the audience are on a web chat. ELY stands for her username :EvaLovesYou.  GB1..N are just stand-ins for names which I planned to make up later. (Thinking up names is hard and it's an interruption when you're writing.)

This kind of stuff just falls out of me. I have no idea where it's going when I sit down to write.

ELY : Okay. Here we go, and remember to stay to the finish because I’ll be making a special announcement at the end. Actually two. Yes? Francis? Pay attention Francis. I’m being told yes. So does everyone know how to raise their hand? Let’s see you do it, for practice. And hands down. Okay. We’re good. So I’m in charge here. No buttinskis even though the chat is open. Imagine I have a gavel  and I’m not afraid to use it.

Somebody called this a Dutch auction in the forum and I had to look it up. It’s basically where the auctioneer sets a price and works down until somebody steps in, which isn’t quite what we’re doing, but anyway, that lead to me clicking on Dutch wife in Wikipedia,, which turns out to be a sex doll which I never knew either.

GB1 : This is  an education. But I knew Dutch auction wasn’t right.

GB2 : I think they meant a reverse auction, which is what this is, kinda. 

ELY : Okay, and I know there were questions suggested in advance, but I want to start off on a differenttopic. Has anyone here used a sex doll? I am keen to know. 

GB3 : Does a fleshlight count?

ELY : Hands  up! And  no, not really, I mean an actual doll, but we may come back to you GB3. Anyone used an actual doll? Hands up! Oh, just one. GB4?

GB4 : I have. Not a blow up one, a life-doll.

ELY : Cool. Do you have a picture?

GB4 : No. Not sure I’d want to post it if I did either. I don’t own it. Jesus, I’m regretting speaking up already.

ELY : Disappointing, but I meant a picture of the doll so we could look it up. Dish it, GB4. Don’t make me drag it out  of you.

GB4 : Okay. So, I like anime and cosplay and hentai and stuff? I was at a convention and I was staying with a buddy - don’t really know him very well, just online though the anime scene. Went back to his place to crash after the con. and he had a sex doll in his apartment. It’s called a real sex sex doll if you want to google. There are different ones. I think she was called Rita.

GB5 : Very  hentai.

ELY : Pretty. And wow expensive. Keep going GB4, you are racking up the points here.

GB4  : So this guy, he was kinda weird I have to say, was like ‘Hey, be my guest. Take her for a spin tonight’. I was kind of fascinated by her and (sorry, for saying her all the time, but it feels weird to say ‘it’) 

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Script Offer. F4M [Cuckolding] wife gives [Jerk off Instruction] to her husband. But [No touching] Encourages him to watch [FemDom] [Porn]. His needs are a chore. [Yawn]. She deserves so much better.

Jessica has sidelined her husband in the bedroom department. He's too much of a wimp and in awe of her to complain. He may also be a bit dim.

It's implied here that Jessica has informed her husband that she is having an affair with some man called Dieter and her husband has agreed to this. It seems this happened very recently

At the time she told him about it, she jerked him off. But now, Jessica doesn't want to be lumbered with taking care of hubby's needs all the time.

Notes for anyone thinking about reading it.
    *sounds*
    also,
    *some hint at the emotion of the speaker YMMV*
    /emphasis/  maybe obvious from the context.
(I always feel weird adding these as if they're instructions,
but everyone seems to do it.  Read it like you want you.)

***** We join, our couple, in bed. ****

Please honey, you're awfully twitchy.

Please. I'm trying to read.

*mildly annoyed* Oh honey. You're tossing and turning. I can't concentrate. What's the matter?

Is it Dieter? You saw me lay out my good pantyhose for tomorrow. You've figured out that I'm going on a date.

*sigh* Yes. I am.

Oh honey.  We talked about this. You said you were okay with it.

Stop. Stop. *closes book firmly*

*briskly, hiding her annoyance* Look. We'll talk. It's fine. I know. These ... changes .. take some adjustment. And communication. It's fine. Let's talk.

Oh. What's /that/ look?

*slightly annoyed* Oh I see. Now you have my attention,  you're happy again.

And you're flicking your eyes ... down there?

*little laugh* Oh honey. That's, slightly sad. You think when we talk about this, I'm going to jerk you off?

No. No. We need to /communicate/. You don't concentrate when I do that.

I think that's part of the problem, isn't it?

*sigh* I stroked you when I told you about Dieter. And you weren't really listening to the details were you?

Yes, I know you were listening. But you're here, all twitchy with me in bed. You haven't really taken it /on board/ have you?

Yes. Yes. You've accepted that I need to find ... release .. outside our marriage. But baby, /you/ need to take care of /your/ self. Okay?

*sigh* Well, clearly you haven't have you? You watched me lay out my lingerie. You /stared/ at me as I got into my nightie.

For goodness sake you even watched my brush out my hair with that puppy-dog face of yours.

And now, here you are, with a raging boner and you're all hot and bothered. How can I sleep or read with you like that?

No. No I'm not going to put you out of my bed. No. I'm not that cruel. We have to keep up, well, at least /this/ level of intimacy.

*firmly* No, I won't.

*sigh* *exasperated* I set you up with everything.

In the den.

The computer? The nice chair? The cheesecake posters on the wall. All the tissues, and the hand cream?

You need to /use/ them.

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I am torn by the conventions I see on GWA.

Describing what's going on or what is being _felt_ seems better, and then the performer can make of that what they will. But it feels like, if you have to say this, and it's not there in the text anyway, then aren't you failing on the show-don't-tell rule?

And trying to force the performer into a particular mind-set in that case, feels slightly creepily controlling. I know most authors say 'make of it what you will' but just making it passive is still kinda controlling. If you want it that way, read it yourself.

But then, putting, *firmly* in the script also feels kinda dumb. Don't the words imply that by themselves? How hard it is to follow those instructions, and even if you do ignore them and make-it-your-own, isn't even seeing the text kind of annoying?

Or

Just put in explicitly *exasperated* or *excited* or whatever.

Or

Just leave it plain and hope that the words inspire the performer on their own merit.

Of course, I'm anwering my own question - it's the final option. Maybe if I had more confidence in what I'm writing I wouldn't need *emotional*

Wolfords Satin de Luxe

I bought a pair of Wolford Satin de luxe pantyhose.
Buying pantyhose isn't a new thing for me. My order history on UkTights is a window into my soul.  But spending 50 euro on tights is a bit of an outlay even for me. However, I can now divide my life into the pre-Wolford wasteland and post-Wolford enlightenment.

 The pair of Satin de Luxe I bought are a soft, shimmery opaque delight. They caress and snuggle your legs like nothing else.

Now, having taken the plunge, I can't understand why I bought all those other opaque tights. I have a bag of them and I will probably never wear any of them again - except the Transparanze suspender tights, which I now have three pairs of - two 80 denier and one 55.

I only rarely have the opportunity to wear pantyhose, so when I do, why would I wear anything but the most luxurious? And these Satin de Luxe ones are the very epitome of luxury.

I mean, JUST LOOK AT THAT SHINE!

But the shine is nothing compared to the feel. It's everything I like about hose, TAKEN TO THE MAX!

Now, of course, I want more. And I've also looked at their equivalent stockings - which would have to be ordered with THIS!

PMV : Adria Rae Raw Something Evil.

 I've wanted to a PMV for Orbital's 'Satan' for a long time. I made starts but nothing that grabbed me enough to finish them.  Then I thought of doing one with the BlackedRaw series and picking best bits from various performers' sessions. I used a Mask overlay of a goat-head pentagram to 'Satan' it up a bit and then added some cuckold caption stuff. But over time, I found I preferred this particular Adria Rae threesome video best so I deleted everything else and doubled down on the captions.

Making captions more interesting than an endless smash of text is hard but I just moved them around, making use of the sameyness of the 'Being their ...' and 'I want to be ...' which then made me think of this.
There's a bit in 'Lost', the early 2000's TV show where there's a flippy-card countdown which reaches zero and then goes below zero into weird alien hieroglyphs, and I decideed to copy that effect.
Which meant downloading loads of weird fonts, which then don't denter on the same line and jump around, which was very fiddly.

But when I added that I liked it a lot and I kept at it until I was done. I don't think I've ever gone from start to finish of a PMV faster.

Adria Rae is great. She has an innocent look that makes these aggressive scenes all the better and this BlackedRaw features a lot of angles and positions I really like. (It could only be better if she were wearing some pantyhose).
She also looks at the camera a lot, which for these cuckold type scenes is essential. She really captures that 'Oh my God, can you believe what a slut I am?" look perfectly.

I dont like BlackedRaw much. It's too dark, most of the models are too skinny and they strip off way too fast. But darkly lit scenes like these make a strobe effect even better. I hope I didn't go overboard with it.

She also does an amazing anal creampie at the end - has there ever been a better one?

Adria Rae is an incredible performer. I think she takes porn to a level that we don't often see. As usual, for me it's not a question of her looks. It's more her looks. She looks at the camera with such raw emotion that you just can't help but feel empathy.

I think, to get a bit noodly here, that porn is totally different to other acting. The performer's partner is really the viewer. To be effecting, they have to draw the viewer in to their experience and Adria does that incredibly well in this scene.

Anyway, I'm really pleased with this one, despite it being quite simple really. Which probably means nobody else will like it, but I'm just doing these for me. And Adria.

Full video here.

Eva's getting ready

Eva Lovia Deserves the Best Cock

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Perfect Porn #7 Brooke Lee Adams

Okay, lets go way back. 

Brooke Lee Adams was active almost a decade ago. She did a fair amount of very ordinary porn. When you scan through the thumbnails of scenes she did, it's hard to tell them apart at all they're so samey. But, she is just indescribably beautiful. Her trademark bob hair style, cute-as-a-button features and soft,  curvy body makes her stand out from performers from that time. Plus, oh my god, she could act.

She did good movies for Digital Playground and Naughty America, but an awful lot of really bad ones too. When you see her astonishing face and body on some tawdry, poorly lit set it's almost heartbreaking. 

What I think made her really stand out at the time was that she

looked like she belonged in Playboy but she did stuff more suitable for Hustler. She always looked like she'd wandered onto the set from a softcore shoot next door and got straight down to sucking dick and doing anal.

She's sometimes described as having 'girl next door' looks, which I always hated as a phrase, and in any case it's some sort of side-swipe at brunettes, I think. I never lived in a city with anyone as beautiful as Brooke - never mind next door. Her eyes are perfect, her skin flawless and her lips are perfect.

But of course, none of that matters next to her personality - slightly goofy and innocent, which like I pointed out, just accentuated the filthyness. Her Houswife 1 on 1 video is just a delight. She's covered in flour, not a great cook, makes up for it with a blow job then enthusiastic sex. She's so cute it's almost criminal.
I collected an awful lot of her movies over the years, but picking a few for gifs for this page reminded me how poor so many of them were, and how stand-out fabulous some of them were.

She seemed to do quite a few scenes with Gracie Glam, including one really-well known lesbian one where she has a bit of an emotional eruption near the end, crying and telling Gracie how much she loves her, I've often wondered if this was real or fake. No doubt she could act it, but Gracie seems so moved and almost embarrassed that I wonder if it was spontaneous.

I havent made a Brooke PMV, but when I listed out eight favourite pornstars to an article on, she was the only one on the list that I hadn't. So, when I went through that folder I put some aside to form the basis of something dreamy and high-class, Just have to pick out some music for it 

Denied

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That girl winked at me - what I like.

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Shamed

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Setting out to be fetish, rarely works.

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Eva Lovia Pregnant.

As if you didn't know already, Eva Lovia is pregnant, but not for much longer. She's posted a bit on her site and on twitter, but it's erratic. This latest photo is the latest, and she says, not much longer on her twitter. 

Obviously, all pregnant women give you the feels and Eva always looks amazing, but this photo is pretty stunning even by her standards.

I feel more and more conflicted about her. She seems lovely in every way except that she's doubled down on being a Trump supporter which makes her (to my European senses) sound like a deranged nazi. I don't want to make excuses for her just because she's beautiful but, given half of the US supports him, maybe I should give her a fools pardon. I don't think she's given it a lot of thought - the closest to an excuse she gave was that she wanted low taxes. Sigh.

However, it's impossible to see this picture and want to criticise her. I'm sure she'll be a wonderful mother.