NOT about Eva Lovia.

I lied!

So I do three things. I make PMVs. I write stories. I make captioned images.

When I'm blocked on writing, I make PMVs. When I can't be bothered with PMVs, I write. When I can't do either, I make captioned images. 

But recently, I've wanted to make captioned images more. All the same. All Eva Lovia, and all of a particular style and content.

Making them is both disturbing and very satisfying - an uncomfortable combination.

I tried doing these with images of other pornstars  but that didn't work, and it seems only Eva represents the ideal of dominant femininity for me.

The first kind I do, are  high contrast. A picture of Eva, looking straight at the camera, and words highlighting the contrast between her and the viewer - her inadequate husband.

The picture is key for the image to work. I look at a lot of them before choosing. She can't be naked and she has to be looking at the viewer. The words have to dominate. Literally.

I like putting her in front of the words, while still leaving them readable, relying on the viewer to fill in what isn't visible. The one above isn't perfect since she's topless, but her look is so powerful I made an exception.

These evolved from ones like the above, which is more of a slogan. And these evolved from the one below where I repeated the text all over the background.

The point is to marry her smouldering, contemptuous look with the impact of the words. 

But of course, being the wordy bastard I am, I can't resist something with more text. These are similar, although I'll tend to use a full-body picture rather than a close-up. I get to elaborate on the relationship a bit more and these tend to be milder. Sorta. 

Eva's husband loves her so much it hurts. She tolerates him, maybe even loves him a bit, but sadly, she no longer finds him attractive. She's forced to find consolation with other men. There's always that hint of sadness, of resignation. She hurts him, but she doesn't take pleasure in it. Or at least not all the time. She humiliates him, but only for his own good, mostly. 

Of course, there's variations.

Physical punishment. 

Torture, because she likes it.

And, well, eh. Actually there's a lot of beatings. 

The inevitable consequence of all her cuckolding of course, is pregnancy. Eva didn't do many shoots while pregnant but she did a few JOI videos where she looks utterly beautiful.  And of course pregnancy is the ultimate cuckold fantasy. 

I actually took the above image and turned it into a PMV. It all links up. And of course, when I'm writing cuckold fiction, Eva's images are all over the page. When I look back at older stories, I'm surprised that I ever used images of other performers rather than her. 

I see that her podcast is getting more and more popular. I've listened to some episodes and it's so weird to hear her voice, which I know so well from her porn career, talking about topics that make my hair stand on end. She's so curious about every right wing conspiracy theory and conservative trope, I feel this sinking feeling in my guts. It's a weird parallel to the Gellis band Centrefold song. She was a perfect porn princess but now I see her sinking into the morass of authoritarian politics it feels so sad and dirty. I long for when she was just encouraging her fans to jerk off over her. Which is stupid of course. She was always this person, it just wasn't public. I just wish it wasn't so.