Adventures in Audio Porn

Did I do an audio post before? I did, but it was years ago. Audio porn is to video porn as TV is to reading. It's a little more work, but so, so much more rewarding.

Reddit's GoneWildAudio is an amazing resource. But unlike visual porn, the medium requires a little work to get the most out of it. So, even though I've been visiting GWA for ages, it took me until just recently to find performers I really like, like AprilW9.  I just wasn't putting the work in, dammit.

Putting in the work.

If you read this blog, and you haven't visited GWA then you should. There are thousands of very, very professional audio recordings covering every kink imaginable. Listening is so much more sexual than looking or even reading. In the very best porn that I like, the actresses act, which can include expression and movement, but mostly it's what they say. But it's so rare. Lots of porn contains barely any speaking at all. When you do find it, it's often repetitive and badly acted. You can get distracted by the images but it never hits you in the heart in the same way as a woman's voice does when delivering  powerful words, direct to your brain. When it works, it's amazing. And that hit comes more frequently, and harder in audio.

Plus, it's almost all free. Many of the best performers have patreons or other pay sites but vast amounts of very high quality stuff is available for nothing. Plus many performers post and comment and take suggestions and feedback online. It's a great community.  It just takes a bit more work than opening a browser and looking. You have to listen and that's harder. Not just more time-consuming, it takes effort to listen, seeing is free. 

I have only scratched the surface of what is on GWA, but I have a few observations.

Everyone is so nice.

The internet is a crawling, foetid swamp of narcissists and fun-ruiners. But decent people have found some cosy corners to hide in. GWA is one such place. Perhaps the moderators of the subreddit are particularly vigilant, but I've never seen people being mean or dismissive. Posts are removed or deleted, but more often for posting links to paysites or other spammy acitvies.

There are so many switches.

I've never listened to a male recording artist, but among the most popular/prolific women, almost all have posted Femdom, Femsub, GFE, weird fantasy and all sorts of stuff. Some are better or more familiar with one kink or another but most of those that I've listened to and like, do a variety of stuff.
It's not like that in the PMV community. There, people find a style and subject and stick to it pretty hard. I can usually tell who made a particular popular PMV by watching the first 10 seconds or reading the tags. Audio performers are much more varied in the topics they cover, even if they excel in one particular area.

Writers and performers are not the same people...

.. to the degree that performing someone else's script is the norm and recording artists tend to flag when they've written the content themselves or are just making it up on the spot. Some scripts are popular enough that several  performers may have a go. That said, there are probably thousands of poor quality scripts languishing that will never be taken up. But still, I don't know of any other medium where writing may so frequently have a life beyond the words on a page.

L-Bombs.

Writers and performers tag the scripts [F4M], [Incest], [Beast] etc. And it's fascinating what they choose to emphasise. L-Bombs are tagged all over the place. I L-bomb that. If someone isn't in love with someone else then what's the point, right? I think every story I've ever written has someone saying they love someone else at some point. Sometimes they love each other on every other page. I don't go looking for anything else - most of the  FSub and FDom stuff on GWA is filled with love. It may be rough, but there's always love and acceptance, which is great.

My own forays into writing for audio

So, ages ago. I liked a site called StrappedInSilk, owned by audio domme Teresa Bowers.. This was in the around 2008.  I messaged back and forth with her a little and I asked if she would record a script I'd written. Its here (as a pdf) And her recording is here too. I loved this, but to be honest I don't remember what writing it was even like. I do remember the thrill of hearing her voice saying the word 'Lingerie'. It sounded way better the way she said it than the way I'd imagined the character saying it. 

Much later I found Natasha's Bedroom and  and Lucy Marie on clips4sale. They did customs at the time and I asked each of them if they would do a script I'd written. (This was a one-sided psychiatrist femdom script). It's here. It was too long and both of them were getting out of the custom business,( or at least they said so. I now suspect that my script was just waaaaay to long), anyway,  I left it there.

Then I found PrincessAmiAudios, who also records (or, at least, used to record) on GWA and had a YouTube channel. I liked her stuff so much I joined her patreon which had the reward that she would record a script. But I've never managed to write one. I tried to turn an existing story into a one-sided dialog. That was easy - it was keeping it succinct that was hard.

It's much different than just writing a prose story, and even though most of my stories are 90% dialogue, writing-to-be-spoken still feels very different. What I write, sounds like writing, not speech. When people talk, so much more is implied than is said. It's show not tell, but all you have is words. And if my case, too many words.

Examples of what I like in Audio

So here's two favorite stories/performers that were in my groove.

The first is ThrowAwayYourLust, doing a script by u/flos_legere, which is here. Her recording is here. (* Actually, she has her own site now and deleted the originals from reddit but the site its down now. Hmm. This copy will do for now but I wish that site were up). These characters appeared in other stories, in which the setup is a fictional firm who have 'Free-Use' Wellness Therapists to service the senior male managers. Very FSub. In fact, it's almost Erenisch, but without the slavery. The script then takes that into a Femdom, Cuckold direction by having the personal secretary's husband be on the phone while she's being fucked by her manager. There's some breeding stuff in there too and it's all very well integrated into the story so it makes sense on it's own terms. I loved this so much I joined Lust's patreon.

Then there's this one Inappropriate Office Behaviour, , by AprilW9 who may be my favourite performer. The script is by ezy11, here and it's set in the same or a similar firm. (I love this Wellness Secretary setup). In this case, the secretary is upbraiding her boss for not being dominant enough with her, in a kind of workplace-harassment-in-reverse scenario. Her voice is wonderful, and she's funny and clever and talented. 

April also has a patreon, which I also joined.

 

April also did a series of three linked audios called Jerk Off competition which are all linked on her page here.

There's so many good moments in that that I could write a whole blog post on any one, but if you do listen to these (and I very much recommend you do, then watch out for her saying "I can't wait to see the look on your fa.." 

That's cut off there, because at that point, she's  savagely penetrated by her bull as she's taunting her cuckold husband. The noise April makes at this point is just amazing. You need the context. Listen to the whole thing. If you're the sort of person who visits this blog, then I swear to you, you will stop everything and vanish down this rabbit hole and thank me for it.

I've had so much pleasure from performers on GWA that I feel guilty about it. I pay for a lot of (visual) porn, but the vast majority of audio porn is just published for free. Patreon for audio is great. OnlyFans for visual porn sucks ass, but that's a different blog post.

My actual recent audio writing.

I wrote a sequel for AprilW9's Inappropriate Office Behaviour story  which I'm hoping she will perform. In a Q&A she said she likes scripts where she gets to flip from Dom to Sub or Sub to Dom in the same scenario, so in the sequel she accepts that her attempts to make him more dominant have failed, and she takes their relationship into her own hands.

My first draft of this was 5,176 words. The OG script, by ezy11, which is 28 minutes long is only 1,786 words. It was only when I did this wordc ount that I realised that my verbal diarrhoea was out of control. Tightening it all up was a painful experience. I found reading it out myself revealed some of the problems, but didn't make editing it down any easier. I did a pass where I edited and edited and at the end found I'd only removed about a hundred words from the total. I'd cut about a thousand and added nine hundred more. D'Oh.

Update (April 2020):

I just got tired of trying to cut it down and published it on reddit anyway. I actually put it straight onto April's page.
Where it languished. It got a couple of comments and a handful of upvotes but no other response. . Then I noticed April has a small website where she actually has a paid-script-audio offer. Yay! So I submitted it there and she's doing it. I can't wait, but I must, until May, so that's not so long. I really, really want to try to do better at this. I've read a few scripts to get some better idea of the way language is used in a for-audio script, but I think practice and simply reading it out loud is probably the only way. I can do the implied dialog of just one side speaking easily enough. 

It's just that what should be one sentence is too long, and turns into two or three and soon enough the thing sounds like someone who is in a Jane Austen novel. When your character says 'However' during sex, you know you've taken a wrong turn.

Another Update (October 2020)

Writing audio isn't fast or easy. Nor recording or editing it either. It took till August for April to finish just the first part of the story. Listening to it was a joy. It's here. . Please listen to it and leave a comment on her reddit page.

Since then, April's been working on the second half. It's imminent. I've also been failing to work on a sequel. Hopefully getting part 2 will make me finish one of the many other scripts I've begun and then let languish in half-done limbo.

Here are a few I've finished.

I want to be your slutgirl.
In which our girl writes out her mission statement - really a kind of SubDom contact for her housemate detailing how she wants to be dominated.

Please baby, I'm trying to read 

Jessica has recently sidelined her husband where sex is concerned. He's too much of a wimp and in awe of her to complain. He may also be a bit dim.
It's implied here that Jessica has informed her husband that she is having an affair with some man called Dieter and her husband has, possibly reluctantly, agreed to this. It seems that this happened very recently
At the time, she jerked him off, while telling him how things were going to be . But now, Jessica doesn't want to be lumbered with taking care of hubby's needs all the time.

Cuckold Hotline.
The Cuck hotline provides bulls to needy wives. It's a prestige service with prices to match, but their stable of studs is second to none and they now operate nationwide! 
The operator gets increasingly frustrated with her caller who doesn't seem to understand what is about to happen to his marriage, and he keeps ... playing with himself while she's trying to do her job.

Audio Script : Friends to Lovers. Fetish. FSub.

Friends become lovers. I want to be your slutgirl. L-Bombs.

What I tried to do with this one is really lean in to the L-Bombs.

In my mind, our star girl has always liked our guy, but they're friends. She doesn't think of him as a potential partner because, friends. After a breakup, she explores her kinkier, submissive  side, which he felt she couldn't do with their ex. She has some random encounters over a few months but they don't work out. But hey, maybe her housemate? She'd heard he was into DS stuff, he's single and they're alone together all Summer. She thinks he'll be into it.

She's quite obsessive and thorough, so she writes out her desires and limits, since that's what all the D/S guide books advise. And, as she does so, she begins to realise she has real feelings for our guy. In my mind, she is surprised to find herself writing 'Slutgirl loves Daddy.' at the end. She hadn't known this when she began.

Originally, the reading of her D/S statement took longer and there was no sex. But hey, where's the fun in that? Then, of course it was too long, so I went back and edited it all down, removing anything  I thought was flabby. So it moves along at a breakneck pace. I find pacing hard.
All this is wish-fulfilment, right? I have to admit, though, for me the wish is to be Jessica, not our unnamed guy.
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Extract : near the middle
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I realised. After like the fifth one. Another one night stand. You can't have that kind of relationship in one night. It takes time. Intimacy.

And privacy.

And /we/ have that in spades. The whole Summer. Just the two of us in this house. Alone.

Will I tell you what I want?

I want to wear just some stockings and heels and a little boob tube. No panties. Nothing else. Around the house. Every evening.

I want to put my head in your lap when we watch TV and feel you grow hard. And then slowly suck your cock into my mouth for hours and hours.

I want you to fuck me. Whenever you want. Wherever you want. I want it to be dominant. And hard.

I want to be your slutty little plaything. All Summer.

It needs to be with someone I trust. Someone I have feelings for. Someone who knows what they're doing.

Do I know what /I'm/ doing? Of course. *laughs* How well do you know me?

I've read all the books. The good ones. I've listened to advice. I've thought about it. A lot!

I've written it all out. Here. We can go through it. The limits. The safewords. What we want out of this. What we want to avoid.

Yeah. Look here. I have four pages. I'm always thorough.

Let's start at the top. You want to go through it? Okay.

So I started with a statement. Like a mission statement. A guiding principle.

*reading* I, Jessica Lawlor, want to feel like a slutty little whore. I want to feel safe and protected. That my Daddy understands me. 

*to him* Yeah. I want to call you Daddy.

*reading* That he cares for me. That he enjoys using me for his pleasure and understands my pleasure comes from being used. I want cuddles, and before care, and after care, and during care. I want to feel desired. I want to be his slut.

*reading* I want Daddy to enjoy using me. I want him to feel comfortable with my limits so he can take me there, whenever he wants and feel secure in knowing that I feel safe with him. I want Daddy to know that I will always tell him the moment anything feels wrong. Even if it felt right some time before. I want Daddy to know that /I/ understand that being assertive and dominant is hard work. But in return I give him my body and my soul to be used by him.

*to him* I know there's a lot of 'I wants' in there, but that's kind of the point, right? So you know. You could write your own. It's more difficult than I thought.

*to him*  Okay. Yeah? There's lots more. We're into specifics now.

*reading* I want to be clear that what goes on at home, stays at home. We will neither of us ever break this confidence.

*reading* I want to dress how I like, when I like. If I dress slutty. I'm probably 'on'. If I dress conservatively, I'm probably off. But you need to be sure. Daddy can check easily by just asking how I feel.

*to him* Writing this out. That seemed wrong. But now I'm reading it. It's okay. I can picture it. You can always ask. It won't break the mood. I mean 'do you want this?' When the answer is yes, then that increases the passion, right? And if it's no. Then you were right to ask. Right? Yeah.

*reading* I retain the right to be on or off whenever I want and with no notice or explanation. When I'm on, Daddy can use me all he wants, subject to this agreement. When I'm off. We're back to friends again. Hugs are fine but nothing beyond that. Daddy doesn't get to ask why.

*reading* My safeword is doorbell. If I'm gagged or have Daddy's cock in my mouth then the safeword gesture is the thumbs down sign. If my hands are tied and my mouth is gagged then I can signal with a nose wiggle.

*to him* Yeah. Like this. I know. It /is/ cute. Isn't this fun? I am getting so wet reading this to you,.

*cough* *reading* For this reason. I can never be masked and gagged at the same time. But mask without gag is okay and gag without mask, more than okay. I like being gagged.

*reading* I want to be lubed all the time. I like feeling ready. I will endeavour to be lubed for Daddy's cock or fingers all the time but it's Daddy's responsibility to be sure that I am properly lubricated for him.

*reading* I love to be spanked. But spanking is special. It needs to be with verbal domination, or during sex when I'm already very aroused. Just a random spank in the hallway is not okay, even if I am 'on'. It has to be in the context of sex or a sexual scene.

*to him* Is this okay? Have I gone into too much detail? I'm aware of my tendency to obsess and overwork things.

*to him* No? It's good? I have to tell you, I enjoyed writing all this out and thinking it through. It was hard, but really liberating. I've been anticipating you coming home all day, so I could read it to you. But the reality is even more of a fucking rush though.

*cough* I'll go on, shall I?

*reading* I have a wide variety of harnesses and butt-plugs and sex toys that I bought when I was trying to explore this side of me. Turns out I don't much enjoy ropes. But I do like feeling constrained by straps. I love being gagged. But I also like to talk.

*to him* Yeah, I know, some of this isn't a surprise. *laughs*

*ahem* *reading* I like wearing slutty clothes and outfits but I also like being exposed. I want to explore all of these contradictions and kinks with Daddy. I want to experiment,  and I reserve the right to be illogical, complicated, contradictory and impossibly frustrating. Daddy doesn't get to complain about this. But in compensation he gets to explore all of this with me.

*reading*  I want to drink pints of Daddy's semen. I want all of it. Daddy is not allowed to masturbate or, /does this even need to be said?/ go with any other woman during the length of this agreement.

*reading* I want to sleep with Daddy in his bed.  I want to wake up with his arms around me. Daddy and I need to go to bed at the same time. If I am tired he needs to come to bed with me. If he is tired he can bring me to bed. Daddy is not allowed to get up before me. Even if this means he has to wake me up, like if he has an early shift at work. At all times I am to be his special slut girl.

*to him* *emotional* *there's a tear rolling down her cheek* Sorry. Could you fetch me some water?

*drinking sounds*

*to him* No. I'm fine. Good, really. Could you give me just a little hint of what you're thinking? I like the silent brooding hulk thing but I'm kind of opening myself up here and a hint of feedback ...

* to him* Is that nod telling me you agree to everything?

Okay. Especially waking up beside me? *emotional laugh* Sure. Yes. That's my favourite part too.

Okay. On we go. Over the page. Last one.

*reading* I want to be called names. Slut, whore, cunt, fuck-toy. That kind of thing. Also, possessive. I am /Daddy's/ slutgirl. I want to be reminded of that. Constantly.  I don't want to be called a bitch because that makes me sound mean. Words that emphasise my sexual submissiveness and neediness are positive. Words that make me feel worthless are not. I reserve the right to change my mind on this without notice or reason. See point 5a.

*reading* Daddy is to be assertive and dominant over his slutgirl. When we are 'on' he will put me, his slutgirl, into positions to emphasise his control and mastery of my body. I will not be putting any effort into thinking stuff up. It is Daddy's responsibility to invent, vary and extemporise scenes. He will need to explore just how I want to be dominated and used, and he will use his imagination and strength to try things out. I will give feedback before, after and during on how this is working. Both slutgirl and Daddy understand and accept that I can be a demanding and needy pain-in-the-ass but we agree to go ahead with this anyway. I will do my best to be as flexible and positive as I can and Daddy will do his best to do the same.

*to him* Last bit. Are we still okay?

Because this is the hard bit.

*reading, slowly* Slutgirl loves Daddy. I reserve the right to say this before during and after.

*sniff*

Oh. *Kissing sounds*

*slightly dreamy from here on*

You're right. I didn't put down anything about kissing.

How could I have forgotten?

I /love/ kissing.


Continue reading the full script.

Audio Script Offer : Cuckold Wife JOI

Script Offer. F4M [Cuckolding] wife gives [Jerk off Instruction] to her husband. But [No touching] Encourages him to watch [FemDom] [Porn]. His needs are a chore. [Yawn]. She deserves so much better.

Jessica has sidelined her husband in the bedroom department. He's too much of a wimp and in awe of her to complain. He may also be a bit dim.

It's implied here that Jessica has informed her husband that she is having an affair with some man called Dieter and her husband has agreed to this. It seems this happened very recently

At the time she told him about it, she jerked him off. But now, Jessica doesn't want to be lumbered with taking care of hubby's needs all the time.

Notes for anyone thinking about reading it.
    *sounds*
    also,
    *some hint at the emotion of the speaker YMMV*
    /emphasis/  maybe obvious from the context.
(I always feel weird adding these as if they're instructions,
but everyone seems to do it.  Read it like you want you.)

***** We join, our couple, in bed. ****

Please honey, you're awfully twitchy.

Please. I'm trying to read.

*mildly annoyed* Oh honey. You're tossing and turning. I can't concentrate. What's the matter?

Is it Dieter? You saw me lay out my good pantyhose for tomorrow. You've figured out that I'm going on a date.

*sigh* Yes. I am.

Oh honey.  We talked about this. You said you were okay with it.

Stop. Stop. *closes book firmly*

*briskly, hiding her annoyance* Look. We'll talk. It's fine. I know. These ... changes .. take some adjustment. And communication. It's fine. Let's talk.

Oh. What's /that/ look?

*slightly annoyed* Oh I see. Now you have my attention,  you're happy again.

And you're flicking your eyes ... down there?

*little laugh* Oh honey. That's, slightly sad. You think when we talk about this, I'm going to jerk you off?

No. No. We need to /communicate/. You don't concentrate when I do that.

I think that's part of the problem, isn't it?

*sigh* I stroked you when I told you about Dieter. And you weren't really listening to the details were you?

Yes, I know you were listening. But you're here, all twitchy with me in bed. You haven't really taken it /on board/ have you?

Yes. Yes. You've accepted that I need to find ... release .. outside our marriage. But baby, /you/ need to take care of /your/ self. Okay?

*sigh* Well, clearly you haven't have you? You watched me lay out my lingerie. You /stared/ at me as I got into my nightie.

For goodness sake you even watched my brush out my hair with that puppy-dog face of yours.

And now, here you are, with a raging boner and you're all hot and bothered. How can I sleep or read with you like that?

No. No I'm not going to put you out of my bed. No. I'm not that cruel. We have to keep up, well, at least /this/ level of intimacy.

*firmly* No, I won't.

*sigh* *exasperated* I set you up with everything.

In the den.

The computer? The nice chair? The cheesecake posters on the wall. All the tissues, and the hand cream?

You need to /use/ them.

Continue reading

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I am torn by the conventions I see on GWA.

Describing what's going on or what is being _felt_ seems better, and then the performer can make of that what they will. But it feels like, if you have to say this, and it's not there in the text anyway, then aren't you failing on the show-don't-tell rule?

And trying to force the performer into a particular mind-set in that case, feels slightly creepily controlling. I know most authors say 'make of it what you will' but just making it passive is still kinda controlling. If you want it that way, read it yourself.

But then, putting, *firmly* in the script also feels kinda dumb. Don't the words imply that by themselves? How hard it is to follow those instructions, and even if you do ignore them and make-it-your-own, isn't even seeing the text kind of annoying?

Or

Just put in explicitly *exasperated* or *excited* or whatever.

Or

Just leave it plain and hope that the words inspire the performer on their own merit.

Of course, I'm anwering my own question - it's the final option. Maybe if I had more confidence in what I'm writing I wouldn't need *emotional*